Tuesday, December 29, 2009

Excited to Decorate

Boxing Day sure was crazy! We didn`t even bother going to the mall and other retail stores because all those places were jam-packed with people looking for good deals. We didn`t want to risk being killed in a stampede so we settled to spend our Boxing Day shopping around for decorations for our house like decorative planters. Just one more month and we will be able to move into our new house so one wouldn`t be surprised how excited we are.

I could actually imagine our home now and how I would make it look more peaceful and relaxing. The best way to set the mood for chilling at home would be to add planters. I know, it`s not too hard to realize that I love plants. What can I say? Just seeing green plants has this soothing and calming effect on my nerves. I was planning on getting plastic plants but I decided that real living plants would look better and would give us the added benefit of cleaner, fresher air.

 I also can't wait to do something about our backyard. We were really fortunate to grab a corner lot for our house so we have this huge backyard, which would look really ugly when spring comes because we weren't even able to add patches of grass and do the landscaping. It's just fortunate that we got garden planters for Christmas so we're definitely on the right track.

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

Judy's Birthday

I have always been an antisocial and socially retarded but it helps that I have a job that requires social interactions and it's also great that I do have friends and family and I am not totally alone. "No man is an island," this is what my grade school teacher has always told me because during grade school I was the only guy in a 5-student class. It sucked that all my classmates were girls and they used to play these girly games and they wouldn't let me play. They would only let me play with them if I became "Ciara" and become one of them. Tsk tsk tsk... but I still love Del Monte School and my 4 female classmates. Imagine, we 5 were the only ones who graduated! Isn't that something?

Anyway, I did enjoy Judy's birthday party. I was able to catch up with old co-workers and we were talking about the good old days, ranting about work and people that pisses us off or people who used to piss us of. It's always good to break out from your daily routine and start feeling like a human again.

Judy's party was a blast. As usual, as any Filipino household would have, our main form of entertainment was the karaoke. Don't get me wrong, I love the karaoke even if I'm not that good at it. I've actually ordered one for myself just recently (damn my impulsive buying habits), well it's a gift for my mom and dad so it's worth it.

I have to thank Tyler for letting me go home earlier. Although I didn't get laid (I think he was thinking of another kind of party LOL) I still had fun. It was also great to see Elvira by the way. Speaking of Elvira, if you want to get a haircut go see her at Kaya Loma Salon and Spa. It was funny the way Elvira suddenly said "Go Bosnia! Go Bosnia!" when we were singing the lines of the song Bebot.

I wish that more people would have come but it was sort of a last minute thing and the other people had work. But I'm looking forward to more parties this coming days.

Friday, December 11, 2009

I'm Pissed Off!

Damn that Jesse Fabia! He has the audacity to pick a fight with me! Me! Compared to me he is just a freaking fetus! An unaccomplished failure of a human being! How dare he slander me when I was showing compassion to a friend who was deeply wounded and was hurting. I wasn't interacting with him and I was in a private conversation when this scum butts in and tries to ruin my effing day!

Guess what you freaking douche bag, bring it on! I'm in the mood for a good fight. Damn him! I don't even know him and the only reason that we're acquainted was because of his stupid brother. It's not my fault that he and my best friend had to break up. Well I tried to break them up at first because I know that he was a sex-deprived freak, but it was my best friend who dumped his sorry piece of ass!
She dumped him out of her own free will, several months after I gave her the ultimatum to choose between me or him, which by the way she never chose anyone. But seriously that happened decades ago and he had to bring it up. Fucking retard!

I am pissed off because I was asking my best friend if her break-up with this other guy was true. I was in a state of shock because everyone thought that their relationship would lead to marriage.  Even I thought that they would get married straight after college because their relationship was  just perfect and beautiful. And then this vile human being (more like a troll) has to stick his ugly head and say, "sure bayot (gay)". What the hell is that? His comment was off-topic, offensive, and completely showed his limited range of vocabulary. Not to mention that his comment didn't make any sense at all and had bad sentence structure. Even a 10 year old could compose a more eloquent statement. But that idiot just failed miserably.

I know that I should have ignored him like we should all do to internet trolls but this was really personal so no, I will not back down and I will fight. I'm through being a goody-good-nice-fellow because I'll only end up as road kill. He wants war? Then I'll give him one he'll never forget. I'll make sure that my words would stick to his puny little brain until he takes his last breathe of air!

Thursday, December 10, 2009

Reaching Out for Your Dreams

It is never too late for anyone to go back to school to pursue their careers that they really are passionate in. Take for example my friend who I used to work with before. She had a beauty career as a hairstylist before when she was still in Bosnia and now she is temporarily working at a fast-food joint in the mean time. Of course no one in their right minds would want to work in fast-food their entire life especially for a young lady in her 20's so she took the big step and enrolled in a beauty program. You may not believe it but hair dressers actually have to go to school to be able to cut your hair or make you look glamorous. 

My friend actually wanted to follow in my foot steps and wanted to do something to improve her current lifestyle and she wants to do something that will actually make her happy. I totally support her plans and that's why I told her to check out school ratings to help her decide on what school to choose from. There are several schools out there but not every school offer a competitive and and sought-after programs.

I actually found my perfect match for a nursing school online as I was doing my college surfing. And at last I will be able to finally start my nursing program this coming January and I am really looking forward to it. With these huge steps that my friend and I took, we are closer to our dreams than what we have have hoped for.

Monday, December 7, 2009

Dark and Twisty Inside

Positive thoughts! Joy and sparkle! Reese chocolates! Yes you heard me right, I need chocolates and ice cream to make me happy. It's unfortunate that I have to turn to food for joy and comfort but I just can't help it if I suffer bouts of depression and self loath.

But I always bounce right back. Uh oh... don't tell me that my current work is becoming a flashback of effing Tim Hortons... nah it's just that I see douche bags wherever I go. Geez...

Ok positive thoughts...

On the bright side, January is fast approaching and I'm pretty happy about that! I'm not excited of the holidays by the way since I work in retail so there's going to be plenty of Christmas shoppers and I'm not liking the sound of that. I could quit but seriously, working for 3 months then just quitting will really make my credit history shaky.

Lol! Dark and twisty!

My Number One Post [Updated Dec 6 '09]

I actually just recently updated my Top 10 Posts list which is found here on the first column to the right of this blog entry.I selected my top 10 posts not on the basis of content and how well written it is but rather on the number of traffic that comes to my blog post.

Let's face it. It doesn't matter how good your writing style is or how vast your vocabulary because if your article doesn't grasp the interest of your reader then your post is an utter failure. With the help of Google Analytics I was able to determine my top post which is Macbook Pro 13 vs Dell Studio XPS 13. My top post used to be about overpopulation but I guess my most recent blog entry about choosing between my Dell and getting a new Macbook Pro sparked the interest of more people and has somehow received a better coverage. I actually decided to keep my Dell because I already received my Windows 7 Ultimate and that I didn't want to waste my money.

It's just too bad that my post about overpopulation was nudged out of my top 10 list because I really loved that post and even if it had poor editing it was still a post of substance and it's becoming more and more rare for me to recreate such a post.

Saturday, November 28, 2009

Leave It to the Geeks!

This post was never meant to offend or degrade geeks all over the cyberworld but it's actually my way of thanking them and praising them for their great knowledge and skills. I especially am happy with the geeks at Web Hosting Geeks.

I am someone who loves blogging and should I dare say self obsessed and narcissistic (wait they both are the same right?) that's why I have a blog that is named after myself. But having a domain requires a need for web hosting and I wouldn't have chosen the right one from hundreds or thousands of web hosting companies.

Blogging used to be such a pain and was a cause of my headaches but thanks to the articles, lessons, and reviews that Web Hosting Geeks had I was able to learn a lot and was able to differentiate the difference between different types of web hosting such as dedicated server or vps hosting.

I actually used to pay a fortune with my last web host but with the help I got I was able to switch to a different web host that was affordable and yet provided me with all my web hosting needs. This is why it's always great to have a geek around.

Materialistic and Insecurities

This topic isn't new to me and I think that I have blogged about this over and over again but there are some things that never get old because these topics are regular occurring events that needs to be reflected upon. But then again this is my blog so I can do and say what ever I want.

Yes I am materialistic I admit to that but the things that excites me or bring joy and fun into my boring life are things that I cherish and find importance. Materials or worldly things can become in a sense "important" or "irreplaceable" because certain emotions and memories are attached to them thus the birth of mementos and of course idols or icons.

But to me, the material things that makes me happy are the things that I have strive for. I worked my but to get these things so to be called materialistic or an air head is truly unfair (no one actually called me a materialistic person, just saying).

I admit that I wasn't born into a rich family or lived in a luxurious home. I wasn't poor but we were able to get by and live a decent and comfortable life. It's just unfortunate that I grew up in a community or environment where everyone was stinking rich! I hated it and really felt insecure when my classmates where picked up by new cars and personal body guards and I on the other hand had to wait for my always late father driving an outdated Toyota. I was always embarrassed with our car and I especially hate it when people look down at me.

So thus I grew up as a materialistic bastard who needs to gather expensive items to make a statement and protect my pride and social status. But don't get me wrong, I may want to look impressive but I know how to act appropriately around other people. When I deal with people who are less fortunate than me who are kind and respectful, I show them the same gratitude. I never make them feel like trash and I support and approve the idea that they are my equals. I actually am uncomfortable and sometimes ashamed that I have something that they will never ever have (not to sound self important). But there are people who are trash but act like they're something so I don't even bother conversing with them. If they do interact with me I follow the Golden Rule: Be sociable and I will be sociable but be a douche and I will show you the 7 levels of hell.

I really look up to the several blessed people I know and by blessed I mean wealthy and have an abundant source of income. The rich people I know and love to associate with are people who may live big but don't have big heads. I never associate myself with uber rich people with nasty personalities because I'll just feel insignificant and insecure but wait that's not the point.

The point I'm trying to make is that it doesn't hurt to dress nice and act civilized and refined as long as you don't step on other people. So if people hate you and call you an effing materialistic loser (again no one called me this) then it's their problem! It's not your fault that they're poor and miserable, you have everything you have right now because you worked hard for it and for someone to barge into your life and call you a fucking coffee stirrer (yes someone called me this and it really hit a nerve) is a reason to dress up to show that you are actually not a poor bastard just trying his best to live a decent life (not that being one is bad). If you don't act civilized and refined then people would judge you as a fucking contract worker but then contract workers would hate you because then you're a fucking show off!

Society sucks! This is why the rich and the poor never mix well together. This social stigma will never go away because of how people operate.

Damn, this post really ended badly.

Tuesday, November 24, 2009

11 Year Old Mother

What on earth is happening to the world?! First was the story of a 13 Year Old Father and now this! But it seems that people aren't surprised that this is happening and some would even disregard this as something natural since it normally happens nowadays.

Call me old-fashioned but I still can't accept a minor bearing kids and raising their own family. If I had a daughter or a son, I would never let anything like this happen. They said that there is nothing that can stop love but logic and reason must always prevail especially in these kinds of situations. If they really loved each other, they would have waited and prepared themselves before finally having a child.

The father really deserves to go to jail because he should have known better than to corrupt and destroy the life of a minor. Doing the deed is bad enough but doing it with out any protection is just plain irresponsible and stupid.

I just hope that stories such as this one would deter young couples from deciding to have babies. I just fear that this would actually inspire or promote pre-adolescent marriages and unions.

A Guide to the World of Web Hosting

I'm actually not what you would call a professional blogger or expert in web design and web hosting. I'm actually just like each and every one of you out there who have no clue about HTML, DNS, or what ever jargons and internet lingo that is out there.

I'm familiar with some of the terms yes but I am a total neophyte when it comes to these things that is why I rely heavily on web hosting guides. It really helps if you understand some of the terms so that you won't be completely lost when choosing your own website host. There are several things to consider when choosing your own website host such as the server's operating software, database server software, and what kind of control panel the domain would provide you with as well as other extras and essentials.

To those who don't know the concept of website hosting,  it's actually a service provided where you can store all your website data in a server where it can easily be retrieved on the world wide web when needed. There are several web hosting companies out there but it really helps if you read reviews and ratings of the top 10 websites before making a huge decision as to where you would do business with.

I highly recommend that you go over these helpful tips, guides, and articles by Web Hosting Rating before you make the long term decision of who you would trust to make sure that your website stays online on the internet.

Sunday, November 22, 2009


I will be lying if I said that the movie 2012 didn't bother me at all. Well for starters, it's the end of the world! everyone is going to die and everyone is oblivious to this because the government is keeping it a secret. Second, only a select few will survive the end of the world because they either have superior genes or if they have loads of money

But whatever, the movie was actually very unrealistic and hilarious that even with the multimillion production cost, I wouldn't imagine the end of the world the way they portrayed it. But again, it is true that thinking about the end of the world is a terrifying act.

It's terrifying because you are made to reflect and do some introspection. The end itself is not actually the problem but the thought that you never accomplished anything in your life or that you have some unfinished business is agonizing.

I'm actually glad that I have enjoyed the 21 years of living here on Earth. I was blessed enough to be born into a great family (not the best but they're mine) and that I have accomplished my short term goals as of the moment. So if the world would end right now, I'm glad that I'm here at home with my family with me. I can accept the end of the world freely because I have come to accept that death is unavoidable and that if it's your time, you can either struggle or just accept it. Although one mustn't give up one's life so easily but it's the end of the world. The entire world will blow up and disintegrate so why waste your time and energy running when you can make most of the time that you have left with your loved ones.

Oh well, life is really short so we should always treasure each and every day as if it were our last one. It's so easy to say but it is so hard to follow in real life.

Getting Cheap Printer Ink Cartridges

These days when people go out and buy a printer, they would check the print resolution, the scanner resolution, the printing speed, and they would also want to check if the printer can send/receive fax or if it can print wirelessly.

What people forget to take in to consideration when buying a printer is the ink cartridges. People would check how much the printer would cost but they would never ask how much it would cost to operate that particular printer. Some smart consumers do ask how much the inkjet printer cartridges would cost and this information is important because people don't know that their ink cartridge replacements actually costs more than their printer. This is how printer manufacturers end up recovering their lost profit on their cheap printer sales.

But it is good to know that one could actually find discounted ink cartridges at Sam's Club. It's awesome that they offer free shipping on some of their ink cartridges and that they still carry certain hard-to-find ink cartridges for older printer models so one wouldn't need to buy a new printer anytime soon.

Aside from selling ink cartridges for a very low price, Sam's Club also has InkJet Cartridge Refill Kits which are perfect for businesses who wants to cut down on office supplies costs. With the refill kits, one doesn't have to replace the entire cartridge (especially for the tri-color cartridges) because one could just refill a particular color.

In an unpredictable economy, it sure helps to buy wisely in order to save for a rainy day.

Monday, November 16, 2009

Stinky People

I'm really quite surprised to encounter extremely foul smelling people here in Canada. And I'm not saying the regular body odour, I mean really stinky! I could actually feel my throat literally burn from their smell. It smells like milk that has gone bad with cigarettes mixed into them, but worst!

I would understand if they smell bad because they're impoverished and are homeless but these stinky people that I encounter actually have money to spare. I don't think that taking a shower once in a while, deodorant, and cologne would cost a fortune. Seriously, I would pay them to stay away from me.

It's just too bad that I'm just too nice and polite to tell them that they really really stink and I wouldn't touch them with a ten foot pole.

It's not that I'm being elitist or being snobby, it's just that there are certain smells that my nose can't tolerate and stinky people is one of those smells I would never want to sniff. I really wonder how they can tolerate the way they smell. I wouldn't last a week with out bathing so if I were somehow be transferred into their body, I would go take a long bath and drown myself with cologne.

To those people who don't believe in personal hygiene, I respect your decision. But please understand that I also have the right to breath in fresh, clean air. So before you go out of your house and mingle with other people, please take  ashower or at least wear some cologne to mask your stench.

This is a very touchy topic indeed and a common reality indeed so I just want to speak out my thoughts on this matter.

Sunday, November 8, 2009

Move Me

As the day of our move fast approaches, all I could think of is the headache of moving. Well it`s actually my mom who should do all the worrying with our move and House Conveyancing but I just can`t help but feel that I have some share of the responsibility.

The date of our move isn`t a great one too. We will be moving in the middle of winter so I`m already imagining knee deep snow and freezing temperatures. it`s not a pretty sight so you could really imagine why I`m stressed out. I`m not really happy with the thought of having to carry all our heavy furniture so I`m glad that I know of a way to save me from my moving dilemmas.

To lessen the anxiety of moving, I`m actually checking out the website Move Me. It has absolutely everything that you need to know about moving. Knowing what you actually need to do on the day of your move makes everything look so simple. There are tips and information on how to go about transferring your utilities, changing your mailing address, home insurance, and even Property Conveyancing.

Move Me even provides you free quotes and links you to several companies (like a removal company or utilities for example) that will give you the best deal. Imagine, Move Me actually creates a move planner for you. Everything that you need to do is all laid out on a calendar so you don`t have to stress yourself out worrying on what you should do or what you forgot to do. And the best part of it all is that Move Me doesn`t charge you a single cent.

We've actually gotten hold of  a Conveyancing Solicitor so all the paper works and  legal aspects of transferring our old property to another owner. So far so good, everything is turning out great! So wish me luck on my move!

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

1 Year and 6 Months

In all honesty, it doesn't feel like 1 year and 6 months has come to pass since I first set foot in Canada. I can still remember vividly the last days that I spent with my friends and family in the Philippines, the goodbyes, and of course the family friends who welcomed us to Edmonton. I can still remember the chilly weather and the smell of spring in the air. I can remember the dread I felt as I looked out the airplane window.

So many things have happened in my life, both good and bad. It used to be mostly bad. I was really depressed and was about to give up but I'm glad that my life has finally become better now. I am happier and I now have hope for the future.

Time really flew fast this time and I can't believe that it's almost time to enter a new chapter in my life, school.

I'm amazed how I was able to survive the past few months of mental torture but I guess taking things slowly and surviving each and every day is the way to go. Because if all I do is wait for the distant future, it would really make the waiting unbearable and I wouldn't be able to focus on what is important in the present.

On wards to the future!

Monday, November 2, 2009

Lovey Dovey

Hello world!

I know, it's such a bad way to start a blog post but this just shows that my head isn't screwed right as of the moment. I am once again in my weird and stupid state. All my thoughts and sanity seems to be misplaced somewhere so I seem to be aloof and out of it. Well I only have anime to blame.

Yes these past few days I have been obsessing over anime that's all about the slice of life. Well to be honest, they are more about the daily romance of high school couples. I've been enjoying Bokura ga Ita and Lovely Complex.

I don't know why but right now I feel like a high school teenager desperately looking for love. Just watching these anime makes me kind of jealous of their happiness and it makes me kind of think of how wonderful it would be to have someone who you love more than anyone else and that someone shares the feeling of love mutually. I know that these kind of things only happens in the movies and they are totally fictitious but it doesn't hurt to be hopeful.

But real life isn't as beautiful or colorful as you may think. I had my own share of experience with love and I have to say that I totally suck at it. I could never say that I've never loved someone truly nor did anyone love me back. It was either I was being used or I was the one using someone. Either way, wishful thinking plays a major role in finding happiness in the charade called a relationship.

In my past relationships, there are so many things I regret but there are also things that I am thankful for. In the end, it's either I hurt someone or I get hurt. But love is a hit or miss kind of thing. You just have to try and try and find that someone that would really make you happy.

I wonder what the future holds for me?

Saturday, October 31, 2009

We Need a Good Laugh Once In a While

My life has been pretty dull these past few weeks. The excitement and joy that I ususally feel when I go to work each day has vanished and is now replaced with constant boredome and guess what? More boredome. My days has become so monotonous that I even find myself saying the same line or same greeting to each and every person I meet. 

But a very good friend of mine sure made my day a little bit better when he made this funny photo online of myself.

I was actually very impressed by this picture and I asked him how on earth he was able to make such a materpiece (masterpeice because it's showing my face, LOL)?! My curiousity didn't go unrewarded because I found out from my friend that it was actually very easy to make photoshoped pictures online. I thought that my friend was a genius at first, but when I was able to make my own funny pciture without any difficulty at all, I took my compliment back.

But again I have to give props or credit to my friend for showing me how to make funny pictures with photos. Waht's more interesting is that picjoke.com actually has new photo effects each and every day so it's best to check their website out everyday to make your own funny photo of the day.

I have to admit that I'm a bit vain so I actually love seeing pictures of myself so I'm sure to visit picjoke.com daily. I'm glad thaqt at least for now there is something that I could look forward to each and every day.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009

Bored and Pissed at My Doctor

Nothing new is happening with my dull and boring life, which isn't too bad anyway. I usually know if my life is starting to be boring when I turn to anime and my role-playing computer games for entertainment.

My week has been really boring so far. Well, I may be a bit excited to receive my copy of Windows 7 sometime next week but other than that there's nothing new. I may or may not start my in-class driving lessons this week but I really should wrap this issue up quickly since I don't want to pay a fortune on car insurance. Seriously, not all young males are reckless drivers with speeding issues. Well at least I don't think I am a menace on the highway.

Anyway, my job is going great. There will always be nasty trolls that will visit any business establishment. They think they're all that, they're rude and obnoxious, but when they see that the price is too much they start asking for a discount or some sort of deal. Well though luck *******, I don't get any commission so I don't care if you buy something or not. But I still think my present job is awesome, if you compare it with my past job that is. Who am I kidding, my present job is terrific! I'm just a lazy bum, that's all.

Oh yeah, I didn't show up for my doctor's appointment today because I never asked for an appointment with him. He was like, set an appointment next week for a physical check-up blah blah blah. I should have asked him what it was for but I figured that I can better express my annoyance if I stood him up. What have I got to lose? It's not like he can take back the note saying I'm physically and mentally capable of performing my duties as a student nurse because A.) There is nothing wrong with me B.) I'll sue him for malpractice or something like that. I really am pissed at how this doctor is treating me. Imagine, he had me do these blood tests before he signed my health record, asked me to come back just to tell me I'm fat and I should lose some weight, and then asked me to come back for a physical check-up. Come on my time is also precious you know. If you just wanted to tell me I needed to lose weight then you could have just given me a phone call. Seriously, if I only knew that he would give me so much trouble just to get his freaking signature (which I paid $30 for) then I would have went to another doctor. I went to him because he was supposed to be our family doctor and he was supposed to have all my health records so he didn't have to make me run around having my blood checked and stuff. Ok the blood tests were justified but having me come again for a physical examination after he released my health record is weird and stupid. I'm thinking that he just made me do all those stuff so that he will be paid by my insurance.

Anyway, aside from that everything is going well.

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Canadian Gambling Taken to the Next Level

Canadians do love to gamble. I remember going to one local casino here in our city and it was packed with so many people. The casino itself has become one of the local attractions in our city. There are so many casinos and bingo halls in Canada that I'm not surprised that more and more Canadians are looking for Canadian dollar online casinos.
I totally understand why Canadians would prefer logging online to a Canadian online casino. With a Canadian online casino, it is much simpler to link your Canadian bank to your casino to pay and receive your winnings. But there are so many online casinos that it's hard to keep track of which casino accepts Canadian dollars or is Canadian operated. This is why it's best to check the Canada gambling directory.
I'd actually love to check out those online casinos myself but I totally suck with gambling. I tried the slot machines and I didn't even know what to do. I'm that bad at casinos. But it's great that the Canadian online gambling guide is so easy to understand that even an inexperienced newbie like me can start playing with confidence. I'm already of legal age so I'm excited to try my luck to win some big buck!

Online Casino Reports is a great site to visit if you're still new like me. I've actually checked out the website myself and all the games were organized appropriately and they had very detailed game descriptions and guides that even a 10 year old could start playing all by himself/herself.

I Love Driving!

I'm quite proud of myself that I can finally drive now. Well it's not something amazing or spectacular for other people but for me it is. I feel like I've passed through a rite of passage and have now finally become more mature. I used to think that I was more mature than my peers but now that I've moved here in Canada I realized that I am still a kid as compared to them. Canadians are very mature people, although they do love to party and enjoy life as western movies would suggest, they do know how to set their priorities and they are just cool people. They are so easy to get along with.

Anyway I'm going off topic as I usually do so I'm going back to driving. I just recently received my Driver's License (a Class 5 GDL!!!) and the day after I got it I started driving our SUV. At first I was having a hard time driving our mammoth of a car. I was driving a Toyota Matrix when I was learning to drive so when I switched to our massive Nissan Pathfinder (well it's not that big, but it is big if compared with the Matrix) it took me a while to get used to it. I just registered as a secondary driver under my dad's insurance policy so that means I can go driving around the city alone. Woohoo! But I still prefer to stay at home during my day offs because I don't want to spend any money.

I just realized that I was a speed junky. I find 60 km/hr was too slow and I love going above 100 km/hr. The thrill of going very fast is amazing! My parents would say that I was a horrible driver because I make sharp turns and I would always send our groceries flying. But they do understand that I'm still new to this driving stuff and I do follow the traffic rules (except for that time I almost ran a red light).

So if you're in Edmonton and you see a grey Nissan Pathfinder, it's best to steer clear away from me. Just kidding. I'm not that bad at driving.

Good Experience Live (G.E.L.) Conference

I received an e-mail not long ago about a conference that will be held in New York this coming October 22, 2009 concerning patient experience. I was asked if I could help spread the word about it and I instantly agreed because I totally support the idea of improving the health care system and this would definitely benefit a lot of people.

The Gel (Good Experience Live) conference is a 7-year old event that focuses on the patient's well being, their experience in the hospital, ways to improve patient experience and who are the people and/or companies actively involved in this matter.

I think almost all of us have had our own share of experience with the health care system and personally I'm not quite impressed or happy with it. Most patients complain of being stripped of their dignity the moment they enter the hospital doors. They have to wait a long time to see a doctor and if they do see a doctor they are seen as an object with a defective part.

In this video, Dr. Bridget Duffy, Chief Experience Officer of the Cleveland Clinic, shares some of her personal experiences and views. She emphasizes that what the health care system needs now is empathy. She sites an example where a patient's family decided to get medical treatment not from the best health facility in the world that simply gets the job done but from a health facility that actually cared for the well-being of the patient.

Even I would go for a doctor who actually checks on how I am doing before and after the operation. I don't want to be cut open by a doctor who I haven't even seen once. This has really been an eye opener for me and I will try to be more empathetic whenever I deal with patients in the future.

So for those who want to take part of this conference you can check out gelhealthnews.com for more details. Here are some important information about the GEL Conference:

VENUE: Scandinavia House, Park Avenue and 38th Street in Manhattan.
DATE : Thursday and Friday, October 22 and 23, 2009

Macbook Pro 13 vs Dell Studio XPS 13

I still can't help being infatuated with the Macbook Pro. I just love the very beautiful design, the incredible multimedia software bundle with it, the amazing battery life, and the "cool factor" that owning one provides. Ok the last reason was one of my top reasons for wanting a Mac. My other reasons were it's 8 hours of battery life, light weight, and it's superior operating system.

But now, I am having second thoughts because I already have a Dell Studio XPS that I bought for the same price so it's like I'm throwing away money if ever I buy a Macbook Pro 13. Someone did offer to buy the computer but she's only going to buy it if I throw in a lot of extras like the Microsoft Office, Antivirus, Laptop Accessories (wireless mouse, cooler, bag), and a 16GB iPod Touch. I realized that I already spent a lot of money on those and giving them away for a lower price is crazy! I'm selling everything for just $1000. And the MBP 13 costs more than that and I have to get accessories and additional softwares like iWork if ever I buy a MBP 13 so I'll be spending more money. Although I have the money to get a MBP 13 now, I'll end up broke so it's not worth it. I still have a lot of more important things to spend my hard earned money on.

It made me look back on the never ending Mac vs PC debate and I guess that with the release of Windows 7 this coming October 22, this gives Apple a run for their money. Windows 7 has somehow become a copycat yet improved the "dock" feature that Apple has. I actually am more accustomed to the Windows OS and I am actually quite happy with it despite the slow shutdown, start-up, and the occasional unresponsiveness. But Windows 7 addresses these issues plus the new OS isn't a system resource hog like the old Windows Vista. Windows 7 runs so efficitently that it can be used on a netbook.

I am quite excited with the release of Windows 7 and getting a copy of the Windows 7 Ultimate for just $10.50 is the major deciding factor I had for stying with my beloved Dell Studio XPS 13. I got the copy of Windows 7 from expertzone.microsoft.com as a reward for completing the Windows 7 training course.

I just have to break it gently to my friend that I have decided not to go on with our deal. This will be a final decision because I already had spoken to her before that I was sort of backing out from our deal. But since she didn't give me any money yet our deal isn't really finalized.

I have been using my desktop for a while because I was selling my Dell but now that I've decided to stay with it, it's time to use it once more! LOL!

Picture credit and comparison information goes to skattertech.com

Saturday, October 10, 2009

Accessories Completes the Package

I have been thinking for several months now to get myself an iphone dock . I'd ask my mom for money but she'll always ask what do I need it for? Well mom, I need it to declutter my desk. If we have guests in our apartment, I usually lock my room first because it is a mess.

What people don't realize is that phone accessories actually makes you enjoy your phone more. It gives you more satisfaction and convenience when your using your phone. Although I believe that accessories, like a bluetooth headset, should be part of the package when you buy your phone but then the cost would be too much that people would think twice before buying. That's why it's great to have online stores like Mobile Fun where they make shopping for phone accessories fun and affordable. They have a huge selection of items at prices you wouldn't believe are real.

I actually had to pinch myself when I saw this blackberry case that I saw on their website which actually casused several dollars less than the one I found in a retail store and it was the exact same thing, design, model number, etc! This is why I love online shopping! It's fast, you get the best deals, and it's convenient.

People would tell me that shopping online isn't good because there's a risk that your private information is stolen. I'm not bothered at all because Mobile Fun actually accepts PayPal paymens, the most secure and safe way to transact online.

Oh well, I might as well check the website out now so that I can start decluttering my desk too!

Thursday, October 8, 2009

Hate Only Beget Hate

I was very unfortunate enough to bump into my least favorite people in the world. I bumped into them in a small shopping centre as I unfortunately had to get blood tests done because of my incompetent doctor. Anyway I had the option to just mind my own business and walk pass them... but I didn't.

My pent up anger was already too strong that I followed them to the food court. I sat near them and had double thoughts as whether to confront them or not. I actually went out the shopping centre and came back several times. I knew that I should be the bigger person and just think that they were not worth it but I just couldn't do it.

I wanted to curse the two of them (my harassers is composed of 8-10 people but I only saw those two effing couple) and scream at them like a madman. I wanted to make a scene and make them regret everything that they have inflicted on me. But what the hell? I didn't even say a single word of vulgarity or curse. I wasn't able to say the "F" word or GTH! I just realized that I was effing calm and I just told them that there is nothing they can say to me anymore because I don't work at a effing Tim Hortons anymore. I told them that they must be really sad that they don't have anyone to criticise or harass. I told them to spread the word to their effing friends that I have won this battle.

But God damn it! Not a single bad word... I am just too polite I hate myself.

Anyway, I am happy that I told them that I hate them (sort of) and I am dropping them from my hate list for good. They have stayed too long in my head and heart rent-free and it's time to kick them out. They mean nothing to me now. I have a new life and I intend to live it that way. Although I didn't say "I forgive you" as most goody-two-shoes would do, but what can I say I'm not that good.

They actually said they don't know me (but they did because they did say I already talked to them before at the store about them harassing me) and they should call the police on me. The nerve! They've been ruining my life and sanity and they even refuse to admit that they speak ill of me. Well I hope God takes them right now to heaven! Ok, I'm sick and I need help... anyone here know a good psychiatrist?

Yes I am much happier now than before. They said that quitting and not facing your problems head-on is a sign of weakness. But in my case, it's the best thing to do. I quit my past job because of so many reasons. But I am very happy with my decision and I wish I could have done it sooner.

Because of my harassers, I had grown to shun away Filipinos around me. I felt that they represented the whole Filipinos in the world as in general. Sure there are some rotten Filipinos (as well as in other races I'm sure) but it's not enough reason to dislike every single Filipino. I used to be traumatized by Filipinos and this became a problem because whenever Filipinos are near me, my brain actually plays tricks on me and I hear them dissing me. I even hear Filipinos talking about me on the bus but to my surprise there weren't any Filipinos at all. Just shows how traumatized and insecure I am around them.

When it comes to hate I am always the first one to crumble. I just don't want to carry the burden of hating anyone... it's too darn hard I tell you. You know what? When ever I see a person who wants to ruin my day then go ahead! Say what ever you want because I would just let it pass from one ear to another. I wouldn't even react or make a scene... gosh this is also too hard to do.

But whatever! I am happy with my life and I will mind my own damn business so mind your own business too. How does that sound?

I'm such a drama queen. I hate myself... wait... hate only begets hate so... I love myself just as much as I love everyone in the world. I love you guys! Even my haters! You trolls will always shatter me to pieces but  my friends and I will put me back together...

Tuesday, October 6, 2009

Thank You for the Many Blessings

I am very thankful for the many blessings that I have received. I guess that all my bad luck and depressions had suddenly became positive vibes as I got to accomplish some of my short term goals.

As of the moment, I am very happy and I am savoring every moment that I have right now. Who knows when the next wave of headaches and heartaches will occur.

Despite everything that I have went through I still am happy that I have been blessed to have a great life and a great family. Sure my life and family has flaws but they're mine alone and I am very happy.

Let me count my blessings and let me thank God and the other people who have made me a very happy person:

1. For finally being accepted into the Grant MacEwan University's nursing program after waiting for 1 year and being rejected by University of Alberta - Thank you!
2. For finding a better job and leaving behind all the people and the job that makes me a hateful and very stressed person - Thank you!
3. For passing my road test - Thank you!
4. For the fast construction of our home - Thank you!
5. For my family - Thank you!
6. For my friends who have kept me afloat all the times I was down and frustrated - Thank you!
7. For everything good that had come into my life which I failed to mention - Thank you!

I hope that this streak of good karma will continue on and I will pass this good vibe to everyone. I finally feel alive.

Thursday, October 1, 2009

A Fun Place to Work At

One of my reasons for joining the Best Buy team was because friends (well just Darron) told me that working at Best Buy was very fun and exciting!

Well I did think that working at a place where you won't be overworked like a slave and stressed out would be considered a fun workplace. But my definition of "fun" suddenly became the word itself, I mean working at Best Buy is fun because the people are very nice, you get to play with the computers, and did I tell you about the PS3 system in our lunch room?!

It really helps to boost one's self-esteem when we have some morning activities that are completely non-work related. With my General Manager around, he would make sure that everyone is happy.

Just like yesterday, before we opened the store doors we played a shooting game between teams. There were these targets with points and the team who receives the highest points win! Although there weren't any prices, having fun and bonding with your co-workers is worth it!

I love Best Buy I really do. The prices are amazing. I can't believe that we are losing money from selling computers because we have to beat the prices of our competitors. We only get income from our performance service plans (psp). Some people would say that the PSP's are useless and are a rip-off but try saying that again when your computer fail and the computer manufacturer takes so long to fix your computer. I know that happened to me once and it wasn't pretty.

Anyway, got to prepare for work so I have to end here.

Tuesday, September 29, 2009

An Easy Way to Immigrate: Global Visas

Immigration is defined as the movement of a person to a country where he or she wasn't born in. There are several reasons for immigration or acquiring a visa, it may be to temporarily work at a company's off-shore branch, to get specialized training and education, to seek refuge/sanctuary, or to escape from one's obsolete government system and poor economy. The last of the given reasons may be the main reason why people from the third world countries like me have for moving to another country.

Many people have asked me how to get an American visa because most would think that the United States of America is the only land of milk and honey. Although I would love to answer their question, the thing is, my family and I immigrated to Canada. But I never left them hanging and I always recommend them to visit GlobalVisas.com because these are the professionals that could correctly answer their inquiries. Acquiring a visa is not as easy as one would think. There are several processes, legal steps, and prerequisites that it would make one confused and frustrated. A mistake in the application process could either mean a denial from the the embassy or a re-application. Either way, you would have wasted all your time, not to mention expenses. This is why it is important to have a reliable Immigration and Visa Consultancy to give you legal advice and accompany you through out the application process.

Global Visas is the leading authority in helping individuals and even corporate clients in obtaining US, UK, and Canadian Visas with the help of their years of experience, research, and a dedicated teams of immigration lawyers and migration consultants across the world.

Getting a visa is the key to your dreams and goals. Don't allow yourself to make a huge mistake that would compromise everything that you have worked hard for. Seek the help of professionals and not just some hear-says from other people.

Monday, September 28, 2009

I Hate It When I Say Stupid Things

There are several sayings or words of wisdom that I have learned through the years but one stands out and holds some truth: "Words are powerful forces that can cause an extreme reaction, and once uttered can never be taken back."

That is why I always regret it when I say some stupid things. Well I have said and done several stupid things in my life that I find it difficult naming one. In fact I say stupid things all the time and I don't even notice it. My blog is a testament to my frequent moments of stupidity or "blonde moments" if you can see it that way.

But again not all stupid statements are wrong. On fact they may even be the smartest thing that one could ever say.

I see saying stupid things as failures. And without failures we will never learn.

Wednesday, September 23, 2009

Outsourcing of Jobs

I really didn't like what I heard on the news recently. Sears Canada was outsourcing it's call center to third world countries. Seriously? There are a lot of jobless Canadians out there and then they're sending these jobs out of the country.

Don't get me wrong, I am happy that the third world countries' economy would definitely get a boost from all the jobs and inflow of income but as a Canadian, the economics and the future of Canada is my business.

I have no interest in getting a job in a call center, but the main point here is with more jobs in Canada, more Canadians will have more income to spend on goods and services, which in turn would improve the Canadian economy.

I just hope that the Canadian economy would soon recover from this recession.
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Mobile Fun

I love shopping online, but not as much as I love my iPhone. My iPhone comes with me wherever I go and it keeps me connected with my friends, I get the internet anywhere I go, and I have my personal media center with me 24/7.

The only downside with the iPhone and other phones for that matter is that the accessories are quite expensive. Oh I know this for a fact especially when I have to replace my iPhone headset. I tell you it's quite expensive.

It is a great news to know though that there is a website called Mobile Fun which as their name suggest just bring fun out of mobile phones. They have a wide range of selection of phones and phones accessory and I love their next day delivery so you wouldn't have to suffer the anxiety of waiting for your order to arrive.

I especially love this website because you get more bang for the buck! For the price of the iPhone headset that I recently purchased from another website, I could have bought an iPhone Premium Pack which consists of the following:
  • Desk stand
  • Car holder
  • Leather pouch case
  • Screen protector
  • Cleaning cloth
  • USB charging cable
  • Mains charger adapter
  • Car charger adapter
What a great deal indeed! Well I've learned my lesson and next time I know where to shop for my phone accessories: Mobile Fun!

Oh yes while I'm still on the topic, if you have any old phones gathering dust anywhere in your house, you might want to send them to Mobile Fun to be recycled. And they could even compensate you for your old phone, so send in your old phones for cash!


Well, this is actually quite an old news but I was too lazy to post last week so here's the latest update on my wonderful life! Yup you heard me! This won't be one of my I-hate-my-life-and-I-want-to-destroy-the-world posts because right now everything is working out right for me. I have so many things to be grateful for and I am glad that my depressing life has made a complete 180 degrees turn!

First, I quit my job at effing Tim Hortons! Hooray for me! I should have done this last year (well I did) and I should have never came back when they offered me my job back. Anyway, Tim Hortons has been the source of all my frustrations and anger. I would NEVER EVER work at a fastfood chain EVER again because I have my pride and I don't want to be dissed and called a contract worker (I aplogize if I offend contract workers). Tim Hortons was the perfect venue for pathetic losers to project all their frustrations and loser life to us who work there because they think that just because they can afford a cheap coffee from Tim Hortons they're already something. Anyway this is supposed to be a happy post so I'll cut my rant short.

Second, I have the absolute best job right now! I am extremely happy to be working for Best Buy. The pay is amazing, the work load is light (they practically pay me to be doing nothing at all), and the people (co-workers and customers) are very nice and friendly.The hours of work are also great!

Third, I'm finally accepted into the nursing program at Grant MacEwan! I actually now have a reason to live!

Fourth, I've already booked my driving test so I'm pretty excited for that.

I'm actually quite hapier now as compared to before where I was depressed over being a pathetic loser because I was out of school, had no degree, and I was looked down as a good for nothing slave at Tim Hortons.

I'm actually a very nice person but ever since those Filipinos started barging their way into my life, my perspectives have changed. I don't want to be a person who is awakened in the middle of the night wanting to strangle those people I hate. If you would compare my posts from before I arrived in Canada and my recent posts you would see that I have become a different person. I want to be a strong person but I don't want to hurt other people in the process.

Photo Credits to DesignFlute

Tuesday, September 22, 2009

My Answer to Casey's Question


I support a kid in the Philippines who is studying nursing. IT IS HIS PASSION JUST LIKE YOURS.

I have stressed to him that FUN, RELATIONSHIPS and OTHER things can wait till after he graduates. He is in his 2nd yr now.

My question: Is this a mistake to ask him to set all these FUN things aside? If u had to do it over again, would u have had relationships, fun outings and other things? He has not set them aside but i keep asking.

Thanks for you input. I am really enjoying this blog and wish u luck on getting back into school!


Before I answer your question Casey, I'd like to thank you first for visiting my blog and I am glad that you enjoy reading my rants and occasional bouts of wisdom. I apologize if I missed your question before and I will try my best to help you with your dilemma.

So here it goes. Honestly, I believe that there should always be a balance between play and work. This is especially true with regards to the kid you're supporting. I'm not just spouting nonsense as I usually do, because in fact, my statements can be supported by Eric Erikson's Stages of Psychosocial Development.

Right now, your 2nd year post-secondary student is in the stages of adolescence and early adulthood. In Erikson's Psychosocial Stage 5: Identity vs Confusion, adolescents are exploring the world, developing their sense of self and independence. If you always prevent your kid from going out with friends and exploring how the real world is, your kid will be ill-equipped to face challenges ahead and he will be insecure with himself and will be unsure of the future (just like me!). But if you provide your kid with positive reinforcement, supporting him in his extracurricular activities or hobbies, then he will turn out to be a self-assured, independent, and a confident young man.

Having fun with friends and going on trips is also a great way to cope with stress from school. Because with out coping mechanisms like taking a day off from a week of studying and tests, your kid might be burnt out and we don't want this to happen as it could lead to depression and extreme fatigue which would affect his will and determination to finish his studies.

It was actually my personal choice to say no to going out with friends, especially on a school night, because I really wanted to make my mom proud of me. I always aimed to be on the Dean's List and get high grades. The only reason I said that all my hard work was useless was because I had to waste one and a half year of my life working at a dead-end job, with the ability to speak and read English as the only job requirement. I was depressed because my classmates, who never were dean listers in their life, were now graduates. But everything is great now! I have my acceptance letter from MacEwan and I already quit my job at Tim Hortons, the source of all my agony and despair.

So let your kid enjoy himself once in a while. But of course he should make his studies his priority over romantic relationships and play. Setting priorities, making a schedule, and balance are key figures to his success.

I hope my insight helped you in your decision. Take care and best of luck Casey!

Friday, September 18, 2009

MacBook I love You but You're not my Priority

I've always been a Windows user and supporter but ever since I've laid eyes on a MacBook Pro my craving to have my hands on one became insatiable! Everything became worst when I've visited the Apple website and saw all those Apple Ads stating reasons why Macs are better than PCs.

I became even more dumbfounded about this whole issue when I've realized that I actually wasted my money on buying a desktop and laptop when I could have just bought a Mac. I really am frustrated at myself as I allowed myself to buy a Dell Studio XPS 13 for $1,300 when I could have just bought a 13-inch Macbook Pro for the same price. The only reason I didn't want a Mac was because I thought I couldn't afford it but when I think about it I've been spending money like crazy the past months that I could have just saved it and put it to good use like buying a Mac.

But it's too late to cry over spilled milk... I guess I have to live with my Dell... what's more frustrating is that I bought my Dell a few months earlier before the promo where you can be eligible for a free Windows 7 upgrade if you have a Windows Vista Home Premium and above versions. Tsk tsk... next time I'm going to do more research and be more patient when buying major purchases like computers.

There are a lot of things that I want to buy but I have to set priorities. My number priority would be helping out with the home furnishings when we move in to our new home, second would be my education of course, and third would be my car payments because seriously... if you're a nursing student, a car is a definite need and not a want.

Sunday, September 13, 2009

New Job: Computer Specialist at Best Buy

Ok, I actually said HERE that I'm not quitting Tim Hortons but I really can't help it if I'm so darn unhappy. It's possibly the second worst job ever. It's second because working at Quiznos was my worst job experience.

Best Buy called me up saying that they wanted to hire me and just bring a void cheque and all. I did go to Best Buy (waited an hour thinking I didn't get the job because I was late for 15 minutes) and surprise surprise! $11.75/hour as a computer specialist. So basically I just turn on/off the computers, check the prices, help customers decide which computer to buy. There is absolutely no commision for our sales so I don't have to force people to buy the most expensive computers and stuff.

I actually like the atmosphere at Best Buy. The location is perfect, just one bus ride, and the location only serves a small community so it isn't busy at all. I start work tomorrow so I'm so excited. Although I love computers I cannot say that I'm a "specialist" lol so let's just see how they like me.

I actually didn't quit at Tim Hortons yet because I wanted to play it safe. I still have work at Tim Hortons next week too so I don't know how things will turn out... I didn't give a 2 week notice or even a week notice... I'm so bad. I actually asked for a week vacation the week after next week, so that I could think about whether I'll quit or work part-time at Timmy's. I only was given part-time but they said that some even work full-time hours so it's no biggy. I'll just make sure I work 5 days a week.

Wish me luck!

Sunday, September 6, 2009

Job Search Turns to A New Insight

For the past few weeks I've been searching for jobs because I wasn't very happy with my current work conditions at Tim Hortons. Although I was compensated well I felt that my pride can't handle being looked down upon because I only work at a fast food chain and I didn't want to be perceived as a contract worker who just came to Canada to work (no offence to Filipino contract workers). Plus there were these old Filipinos who had nothing better to do but harass me, they check on what we're doing like hawks and criticizing every action that I take.

That's why I wanted to look for another job. I've applied to several jobs and the only employers that were interested in hiring me were Save on Foods, Best Buy, and Wal Mart. I had interviews at Best Buy and Wal Mart. I actually was hired and Wal Mart and even had my orientation and tour of the store which was great because I was paid for it. But I'm not really happy with Wal Mart because I was only given a part-time cashier position and I'm only paid $9.70/hour so I'm going to inform the management tomorrow that I won't be able to commit because I get better hours and a higher pay at Tim Hortons.

I'm still expecting a call at Best Buy but I guess I'm going to have to decline because I need to get work at Saturday and Sunday too when I start school this January, and I don't think Best Buy will give me those hours. I will still have to weigh the pros and cons, like hours, the salary, the long term employment, etc before commiting to the job, that is if Best Buy hires me (I hope not).

I see Tim Hortons in a new light now. I used to get so tired and I actually hated the job but after seeing that my job pays me well and the job load isn't that bad too (depends on who the supervisor is). Plus I'm guaranteed to have a part-time job when I'm working which I really need because I need to get my own car.

I don't care what people think or say about me. All I care is that I need the money because I have bills to pay and let's face it. Money makes the world go round. And in my defense, even rich kids want to work at Wal Mart or Tim Hortons and other places because they want to earn their own money. So even if I'm Filipino, I'm no way cheap. It's true that I'm not rich but I have enough to get by and buy some of the things I want. I'm still just a student, what do you expect? I don't intend to play the who's richer game that Filipino plays because that is just plain stupid.

So I love Tim Hortons! It's a great place to work and what other people think is not important.

Monday, August 31, 2009


I didn't know how to react to what this girl said to me at work the other day. I didn't know whether to be angry for her sarcasm or if she was only trying to be funny. She and her friends were at work and she asked if we needed any lockers, "You can put stuff inside and lock it," as she said. If I wasn't in a good mood or if their group weren't nice I would show her real sarcasm.

Anyway, yes they started telling us that they could give us a great deal because they had just helped fix up a school nearby and they had old school lockers. I wasn't really interested in the whole locker idea but when I started thinking about it our staff room could use a locker for us "to put our stuff and lock it".

I guess those guys are trying to sell those old wood lockers for them to raise enough funds to buy new gym lockers. I have to admit that those kids are really doing something great for the community and I applaud them for it.

Sunday, August 30, 2009

Blame it on the Philippine Economy & Government

Honestly, I hate my life. I feel that I am the most unsuccessful loser on the face of the planet. I feel so unaccomplished and I feel like killing myself. That's right, I am sick of being someone who has nothing to be proud of except my mom and her accomplishments.

If I only knew... If I had the power to predict that I would waste one year of my life working at a store where my entire human dignity will be chewed and spat out I would have never left the beautiful life that I had. Sure I didn't afford stuff that I wanted and we didn't have a car in the Philippines but I had something that I can be proud of. I was a student at one of the best university in the Philippines. I was praised as being one of the smartest and considered as a student leader... but all of that is meaningless now... I'm just a loser...

My whole life is being challenged. My beliefs and my self worth is being shaken... The strong foundation that I have built through the years of studying well and trying to make academic and even social accomplishments are now easily uprooted and thrown into the abyss. I have nothing... I was an educated person, but once I set foot on Canada my education and my everything is deemed uncompetitive and inferior as compared to Canadian standards.

I hate being gloomy about the entire thing... I especially hate being gloomy about my life in front of my mom. I feel bad because I feel like I'm blaming her for what's happening to me... or rather, what's not happening to me. But I don't blame my mom. She meant well and she never expected this either to happen to me. If there was anyone to blame, it would be the Philippine economy and the government.

That's right! It's the Philippine economy and the Philippine government that should be blamed for my current situation. If the Philippines was like Canada, no one would ever leave the country and everyone would live a good life because everything can be afforded. I hate the stupid politicians and the idiot people who elected them and then complain about it. Seriously, after Ferdinand Marcos everything went downhill. Schools depicts Marcos as an evil corrupt man but for me he was the one that has built a great foundation for a better future but all these foundations where discontinued by Cory Aquino and even the projects of Marcos that could have benefited a lot where stopped because it was the project of the man she hates, how selfish and thoughtless.

I have so many dreams and goals... I wanted to be a great person who could contribute something to man kind... but being born in the Philippines has greatly injured my chances... I don't hate my mother land but I'm just very frustrated right now...