I know, it's such a bad way to start a blog post but this just shows that my head isn't screwed right as of the moment. I am once again in my weird and stupid state. All my thoughts and sanity seems to be misplaced somewhere so I seem to be aloof and out of it. Well I only have anime to blame.
Yes these past few days I have been obsessing over anime that's all about the slice of life. Well to be honest, they are more about the daily romance of high school couples. I've been enjoying Bokura ga Ita and Lovely Complex.
I don't know why but right now I feel like a high school teenager desperately looking for love. Just watching these anime makes me kind of jealous of their happiness and it makes me kind of think of how wonderful it would be to have someone who you love more than anyone else and that someone shares the feeling of love mutually. I know that these kind of things only happens in the movies and they are totally fictitious but it doesn't hurt to be hopeful.
But real life isn't as beautiful or colorful as you may think. I had my own share of experience with love and I have to say that I totally suck at it. I could never say that I've never loved someone truly nor did anyone love me back. It was either I was being used or I was the one using someone. Either way, wishful thinking plays a major role in finding happiness in the charade called a relationship.
In my past relationships, there are so many things I regret but there are also things that I am thankful for. In the end, it's either I hurt someone or I get hurt. But love is a hit or miss kind of thing. You just have to try and try and find that someone that would really make you happy.
I wonder what the future holds for me?