Wednesday, August 20, 2008

M.I.A. & Work

After annoying a certain someone to tell me what she meant by M.I.A. I finally am able to blog again after being Missing In Action (MIA) for so long.

Well not that long, I was able to make the pathetic I'm so depressed and want to kill myself post. Finally, after being given two straight days of vacation (thanks to a co-worker who wanted more hours of work) I am now able to take a break and appreciate the beauty of life with work out of my mind.

After thinking things through I now realize why I had such a nasty breakdown. Well as the saying goes, "If you're too nice, people will step on you", this is true in my case. I don't know why I am able to say no and be awful to my family who I love yet I am able to allow complete strangers to take advantage of me and to step on me. You see I had the power to say NO to my manager but she was nice to me and she needed someone to work at 11 pm to 7 am because no one in their right mind would agree to work alone at night doing everything.

But because of my stupidity I worked 11 pm to 7 am even if it was my day-off and the following day I had to go home at 7 am and go back to work later on at 3 pm to 11 pm. I was truly pissed at myself for being Mr. Kindy Ass. I should have let the answering machine take her call but when she (my manager) called for the second time I picked up thinking it was important, now I truly learned my lesson. I will not pick up the phone if my work is calling for me when I'm on day-off. And if they ask me to work at night the answer would be a definite NO! No more Mr. Nicey Pants.

If you think that I'm over reacting well you are definitely wrong. Did you know that even in my sleep I still dream that I'm still working. And I totally get no rest at all because in my mind I outside my bed room is the store where I work in. I have to remind myself that I am in my bedroom and I am sleeping.

I have sacrificed enough for my work, I don't want to give up my sanity too.

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