M.I.A. & Work

After annoying a certain someone to tell me what she meant by M.I.A. I finally am able to blog again after being Missing In Action (MIA) for so long.

Well not that long, I was able to make the pathetic I'm so depressed and want to kill myself post. Finally, after being given two straight days of vacation (thanks to a co-worker who wanted more hours of work) I am now able to take a break and appreciate the beauty of life with work out of my mind.

After thinking things through I now realize why I had such a nasty breakdown. Well as the saying goes, "If you're too nice, people will step on you", this is true in my case. I don't know why I am able to say no and be awful to my family who I love yet I am able to allow complete strangers to take advantage of me and to step on me. You see I had the power to say NO to my manager but she was nice to me and she needed someone to work at 11 pm to 7 am because no one in their right mind would agree to work alone at night doing everything.

But because of my stupidity I worked 11 pm to 7 am even if it was my day-off and the following day I had to go home at 7 am and go back to work later on at 3 pm to 11 pm. I was truly pissed at myself for being Mr. Kindy Ass. I should have let the answering machine take her call but when she (my manager) called for the second time I picked up thinking it was important, now I truly learned my lesson. I will not pick up the phone if my work is calling for me when I'm on day-off. And if they ask me to work at night the answer would be a definite NO! No more Mr. Nicey Pants.

If you think that I'm over reacting well you are definitely wrong. Did you know that even in my sleep I still dream that I'm still working. And I totally get no rest at all because in my mind I outside my bed room is the store where I work in. I have to remind myself that I am in my bedroom and I am sleeping.

I have sacrificed enough for my work, I don't want to give up my sanity too.

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The Cycle of Depression

How do I feel now? Well let's just say that I'm feeling down. I feel as if I'm not going anywhere and that I'm stuck. A sense of impending doom if you may say. I'm afraid that I may not reach my full potentials. I want to find the next nearest tall building and jump off from it.

I don't want to work at a low-paying job anymore. I know that I am lucky to get a job that pays $9.50 an hour but this is not what I envisioned myself to be. I'm so sick and tired waiting for my college to evaluate my transcripts. I want to study right now so that I could finish my degree earlier.

Sure I can afford to buy the things I want with my present job and survive but the problem is this is not what I want to be for the rest of my life. I know that I could do more and be more than who I am right now.

My whole integrity is being challenged and I can't stop thinking that moving to Canada was a huge mistake, for my part at least. I should have finished my studies back in the Philippines.

My job is no bundle of joy either. I hate my job. I am asked again to work tonight at 11 pm to 7 am and next Sunday they're sending me to another Tim Hortons and I have absolutely no idea where that is.

I'm tired... I'm losing hope. To others this may be such a simple problem with such a simple solution but it isn't that easy believe me.

Madonna

I was watching a documentary of Madonna (Yup she has a documentary! She's a Legend of Pop!) when it said something about the controversial American Dream of Madonna. Well of course, my curiosity got the best of me and I searched for the said video. Well I didn't have to search to far thanks to Youtube:

The music video combined with the song brings out an explosive message of how US supremacy is affecting third world countries. If the US wants to wage wars on other countries then they can. But I think that the deeper message is not really being anti-US but rather being an anti-war.

War brings so much death and violence. There is nothing that war can solve. Period.

Losing Weight: Fast & Easy

Let's face it... food is very good. There are times that we try to eat right but the temptations of eating to satisfy our cravings always get the better of us so we always break our promises of continuing our diet or exercise thus even if we do lose weight we quickly regain that lost weight since we go back to our old bad eating habits.

Losing weight is no easy task. If it was then every one would be very thin and healthy. But it's a good thing that among the several resources on the internet, weight-loss-diet-help.com sheds light on the secrets of a successful diet plan and routine.

Weight Loss Diet Help is a good resource to find reviews on several effective online diet programs, weight loss articles, plus coupons and deals like save on Medifast shakes, bars, pudding, soups and drinks.

Wouldn't it be great to just live life and eat food that you love like chocolates, pasta, cakes and still lose weight?! Don't believe me? Just check out the amazing weight loss programs that weight Loss Diet Help is sharing to the public.

But the thing that separates Weight Loss Diet Help from other websites on the internet is that the main goal of Weight Loss Diet Help is healthy weight loss. You can't lose a lot of weight in just a short span of time, because if you do you are only doing more damage to your body than good.

With many diet fads and weight loss myths it is imperative that one is well informed so that one can lose weight and successfully retain that lost weight. I sure would like to lose weight but I can never do this if I just sit around and do nothing. We have to do simple steps to reduce calories and then proceed to bigger actions to reduce our weight. The process may be slow but at least we are getting somewhere.

Get A Job You BUM!

Just this afternoon, several of our customers called our attention and asked us to shoo away a woman outside our store who was asking every one who comes in (or out) the store door for money. Many of the customers unanimously agreed that people like her should just take a hike and get lost.

I honestly have to agree with them because I too have been asked once or twice by these able bodied people for money. And like any people here in Canada would do, I would refuse to give them money. I don't want to give them money because I'm working hard for my money and they just ask for it and wait for the government to give them money?! Yes the government gives them compensation and living expenses because they are unemployed. But the thing is Alberta has so many job openings so it's impossible for them not to get a job.

Heck even my 16 year old brother has a job and is earning his own money so how could they not be able to find a job and just rely on other people's hard earned money to survive?

These people, ladies and gentlemen, are the scum of society. I know it's too harsh of a word but it's the only word that gives justice to them. You see there are more people that deserves funding from the government. Who are these deserving people? Well the people who are unable to work because they are disabled and or maybe just because they are dead. If they are dead then who will support their family right?

Since many are claiming that they need welfare, less is being given to those who truly need it. So I highly recommend people to refrain from giving your money to these beggars who might be using these money for drugs or some illegal activities. If you really want to help the needy, you're better off donating your money to charity organizations or for good causes like funds for cure of HIV or something like that.