1 Year and 6 Months

In all honesty, it doesn't feel like 1 year and 6 months has come to pass since I first set foot in Canada. I can still remember vividly the last days that I spent with my friends and family in the Philippines, the goodbyes, and of course the family friends who welcomed us to Edmonton. I can still remember the chilly weather and the smell of spring in the air. I can remember the dread I felt as I looked out the airplane window.

So many things have happened in my life, both good and bad. It used to be mostly bad. I was really depressed and was about to give up but I'm glad that my life has finally become better now. I am happier and I now have hope for the future.

Time really flew fast this time and I can't believe that it's almost time to enter a new chapter in my life, school.

I'm amazed how I was able to survive the past few months of mental torture but I guess taking things slowly and surviving each and every day is the way to go. Because if all I do is wait for the distant future, it would really make the waiting unbearable and I wouldn't be able to focus on what is important in the present.

On wards to the future!

Lovey Dovey

Hello world!

I know, it's such a bad way to start a blog post but this just shows that my head isn't screwed right as of the moment. I am once again in my weird and stupid state. All my thoughts and sanity seems to be misplaced somewhere so I seem to be aloof and out of it. Well I only have anime to blame.

Yes these past few days I have been obsessing over anime that's all about the slice of life. Well to be honest, they are more about the daily romance of high school couples. I've been enjoying Bokura ga Ita and Lovely Complex.

I don't know why but right now I feel like a high school teenager desperately looking for love. Just watching these anime makes me kind of jealous of their happiness and it makes me kind of think of how wonderful it would be to have someone who you love more than anyone else and that someone shares the feeling of love mutually. I know that these kind of things only happens in the movies and they are totally fictitious but it doesn't hurt to be hopeful.

But real life isn't as beautiful or colorful as you may think. I had my own share of experience with love and I have to say that I totally suck at it. I could never say that I've never loved someone truly nor did anyone love me back. It was either I was being used or I was the one using someone. Either way, wishful thinking plays a major role in finding happiness in the charade called a relationship.

In my past relationships, there are so many things I regret but there are also things that I am thankful for. In the end, it's either I hurt someone or I get hurt. But love is a hit or miss kind of thing. You just have to try and try and find that someone that would really make you happy.

I wonder what the future holds for me?

We Need a Good Laugh Once In a While

My life has been pretty dull these past few weeks. The excitement and joy that I ususally feel when I go to work each day has vanished and is now replaced with constant boredome and guess what? More boredome. My days has become so monotonous that I even find myself saying the same line or same greeting to each and every person I meet. 

But a very good friend of mine sure made my day a little bit better when he made this funny photo online of myself.

I was actually very impressed by this picture and I asked him how on earth he was able to make such a materpiece (masterpeice because it's showing my face, LOL)?! My curiousity didn't go unrewarded because I found out from my friend that it was actually very easy to make photoshoped pictures online. I thought that my friend was a genius at first, but when I was able to make my own funny pciture without any difficulty at all, I took my compliment back.

But again I have to give props or credit to my friend for showing me how to make funny pictures with photos. Waht's more interesting is that picjoke.com actually has new photo effects each and every day so it's best to check their website out everyday to make your own funny photo of the day.

I have to admit that I'm a bit vain so I actually love seeing pictures of myself so I'm sure to visit picjoke.com daily. I'm glad thaqt at least for now there is something that I could look forward to each and every day.

Bored and Pissed at My Doctor

Nothing new is happening with my dull and boring life, which isn't too bad anyway. I usually know if my life is starting to be boring when I turn to anime and my role-playing computer games for entertainment.

My week has been really boring so far. Well, I may be a bit excited to receive my copy of Windows 7 sometime next week but other than that there's nothing new. I may or may not start my in-class driving lessons this week but I really should wrap this issue up quickly since I don't want to pay a fortune on car insurance. Seriously, not all young males are reckless drivers with speeding issues. Well at least I don't think I am a menace on the highway.

Anyway, my job is going great. There will always be nasty trolls that will visit any business establishment. They think they're all that, they're rude and obnoxious, but when they see that the price is too much they start asking for a discount or some sort of deal. Well though luck *******, I don't get any commission so I don't care if you buy something or not. But I still think my present job is awesome, if you compare it with my past job that is. Who am I kidding, my present job is terrific! I'm just a lazy bum, that's all.

Oh yeah, I didn't show up for my doctor's appointment today because I never asked for an appointment with him. He was like, set an appointment next week for a physical check-up blah blah blah. I should have asked him what it was for but I figured that I can better express my annoyance if I stood him up. What have I got to lose? It's not like he can take back the note saying I'm physically and mentally capable of performing my duties as a student nurse because A.) There is nothing wrong with me B.) I'll sue him for malpractice or something like that. I really am pissed at how this doctor is treating me. Imagine, he had me do these blood tests before he signed my health record, asked me to come back just to tell me I'm fat and I should lose some weight, and then asked me to come back for a physical check-up. Come on my time is also precious you know. If you just wanted to tell me I needed to lose weight then you could have just given me a phone call. Seriously, if I only knew that he would give me so much trouble just to get his freaking signature (which I paid $30 for) then I would have went to another doctor. I went to him because he was supposed to be our family doctor and he was supposed to have all my health records so he didn't have to make me run around having my blood checked and stuff. Ok the blood tests were justified but having me come again for a physical examination after he released my health record is weird and stupid. I'm thinking that he just made me do all those stuff so that he will be paid by my insurance.

Anyway, aside from that everything is going well.