MacBook I love You but You're not my Priority

I've always been a Windows user and supporter but ever since I've laid eyes on a MacBook Pro my craving to have my hands on one became insatiable! Everything became worst when I've visited the Apple website and saw all those Apple Ads stating reasons why Macs are better than PCs.

I became even more dumbfounded about this whole issue when I've realized that I actually wasted my money on buying a desktop and laptop when I could have just bought a Mac. I really am frustrated at myself as I allowed myself to buy a Dell Studio XPS 13 for $1,300 when I could have just bought a 13-inch Macbook Pro for the same price. The only reason I didn't want a Mac was because I thought I couldn't afford it but when I think about it I've been spending money like crazy the past months that I could have just saved it and put it to good use like buying a Mac.

But it's too late to cry over spilled milk... I guess I have to live with my Dell... what's more frustrating is that I bought my Dell a few months earlier before the promo where you can be eligible for a free Windows 7 upgrade if you have a Windows Vista Home Premium and above versions. Tsk tsk... next time I'm going to do more research and be more patient when buying major purchases like computers.

There are a lot of things that I want to buy but I have to set priorities. My number priority would be helping out with the home furnishings when we move in to our new home, second would be my education of course, and third would be my car payments because seriously... if you're a nursing student, a car is a definite need and not a want.

New Job: Computer Specialist at Best Buy

Ok, I actually said HERE that I'm not quitting Tim Hortons but I really can't help it if I'm so darn unhappy. It's possibly the second worst job ever. It's second because working at Quiznos was my worst job experience.

Best Buy called me up saying that they wanted to hire me and just bring a void cheque and all. I did go to Best Buy (waited an hour thinking I didn't get the job because I was late for 15 minutes) and surprise surprise! $11.75/hour as a computer specialist. So basically I just turn on/off the computers, check the prices, help customers decide which computer to buy. There is absolutely no commision for our sales so I don't have to force people to buy the most expensive computers and stuff.

I actually like the atmosphere at Best Buy. The location is perfect, just one bus ride, and the location only serves a small community so it isn't busy at all. I start work tomorrow so I'm so excited. Although I love computers I cannot say that I'm a "specialist" lol so let's just see how they like me.

I actually didn't quit at Tim Hortons yet because I wanted to play it safe. I still have work at Tim Hortons next week too so I don't know how things will turn out... I didn't give a 2 week notice or even a week notice... I'm so bad. I actually asked for a week vacation the week after next week, so that I could think about whether I'll quit or work part-time at Timmy's. I only was given part-time but they said that some even work full-time hours so it's no biggy. I'll just make sure I work 5 days a week.

Wish me luck!

Job Search Turns to A New Insight

For the past few weeks I've been searching for jobs because I wasn't very happy with my current work conditions at Tim Hortons. Although I was compensated well I felt that my pride can't handle being looked down upon because I only work at a fast food chain and I didn't want to be perceived as a contract worker who just came to Canada to work (no offence to Filipino contract workers). Plus there were these old Filipinos who had nothing better to do but harass me, they check on what we're doing like hawks and criticizing every action that I take.

That's why I wanted to look for another job. I've applied to several jobs and the only employers that were interested in hiring me were Save on Foods, Best Buy, and Wal Mart. I had interviews at Best Buy and Wal Mart. I actually was hired and Wal Mart and even had my orientation and tour of the store which was great because I was paid for it. But I'm not really happy with Wal Mart because I was only given a part-time cashier position and I'm only paid $9.70/hour so I'm going to inform the management tomorrow that I won't be able to commit because I get better hours and a higher pay at Tim Hortons.

I'm still expecting a call at Best Buy but I guess I'm going to have to decline because I need to get work at Saturday and Sunday too when I start school this January, and I don't think Best Buy will give me those hours. I will still have to weigh the pros and cons, like hours, the salary, the long term employment, etc before commiting to the job, that is if Best Buy hires me (I hope not).

I see Tim Hortons in a new light now. I used to get so tired and I actually hated the job but after seeing that my job pays me well and the job load isn't that bad too (depends on who the supervisor is). Plus I'm guaranteed to have a part-time job when I'm working which I really need because I need to get my own car.

I don't care what people think or say about me. All I care is that I need the money because I have bills to pay and let's face it. Money makes the world go round. And in my defense, even rich kids want to work at Wal Mart or Tim Hortons and other places because they want to earn their own money. So even if I'm Filipino, I'm no way cheap. It's true that I'm not rich but I have enough to get by and buy some of the things I want. I'm still just a student, what do you expect? I don't intend to play the who's richer game that Filipino plays because that is just plain stupid.

So I love Tim Hortons! It's a great place to work and what other people think is not important.

Lockers

I didn't know how to react to what this girl said to me at work the other day. I didn't know whether to be angry for her sarcasm or if she was only trying to be funny. She and her friends were at work and she asked if we needed any lockers, "You can put stuff inside and lock it," as she said. If I wasn't in a good mood or if their group weren't nice I would show her real sarcasm.

Anyway, yes they started telling us that they could give us a great deal because they had just helped fix up a school nearby and they had old school lockers. I wasn't really interested in the whole locker idea but when I started thinking about it our staff room could use a locker for us "to put our stuff and lock it".

I guess those guys are trying to sell those old wood lockers for them to raise enough funds to buy new gym lockers. I have to admit that those kids are really doing something great for the community and I applaud them for it.

Blame it on the Philippine Economy & Government

Honestly, I hate my life. I feel that I am the most unsuccessful loser on the face of the planet. I feel so unaccomplished and I feel like killing myself. That's right, I am sick of being someone who has nothing to be proud of except my mom and her accomplishments.

If I only knew... If I had the power to predict that I would waste one year of my life working at a store where my entire human dignity will be chewed and spat out I would have never left the beautiful life that I had. Sure I didn't afford stuff that I wanted and we didn't have a car in the Philippines but I had something that I can be proud of. I was a student at one of the best university in the Philippines. I was praised as being one of the smartest and considered as a student leader... but all of that is meaningless now... I'm just a loser...

My whole life is being challenged. My beliefs and my self worth is being shaken... The strong foundation that I have built through the years of studying well and trying to make academic and even social accomplishments are now easily uprooted and thrown into the abyss. I have nothing... I was an educated person, but once I set foot on Canada my education and my everything is deemed uncompetitive and inferior as compared to Canadian standards.

I hate being gloomy about the entire thing... I especially hate being gloomy about my life in front of my mom. I feel bad because I feel like I'm blaming her for what's happening to me... or rather, what's not happening to me. But I don't blame my mom. She meant well and she never expected this either to happen to me. If there was anyone to blame, it would be the Philippine economy and the government.

That's right! It's the Philippine economy and the Philippine government that should be blamed for my current situation. If the Philippines was like Canada, no one would ever leave the country and everyone would live a good life because everything can be afforded. I hate the stupid politicians and the idiot people who elected them and then complain about it. Seriously, after Ferdinand Marcos everything went downhill. Schools depicts Marcos as an evil corrupt man but for me he was the one that has built a great foundation for a better future but all these foundations where discontinued by Cory Aquino and even the projects of Marcos that could have benefited a lot where stopped because it was the project of the man she hates, how selfish and thoughtless.

I have so many dreams and goals... I wanted to be a great person who could contribute something to man kind... but being born in the Philippines has greatly injured my chances... I don't hate my mother land but I'm just very frustrated right now...