Do I Exist Or Live Life?

What is life by the way? Why am I alive? Is living all about the grades and the achievements? Does one’s skills define a person? Why do we always have to be classified into classes? If this is the definition of life then what’s the use of living?

I can say that I really just exist. I feel so little, useless, and unimportant. Even if I die would anyone care? The world will still continue to turn and people would still do their daily routines like nothing happened. I’m not the center of the universe anyway right? No one is. I just exist because I don’t see any use in living. I am tired to wake up each day just to see my self fail again and again. I try so hard to do things that would give meaning to my living but life spits at me and laughs at my weaknesses. It pains me to know that my best is not enough. I believed that I was born for greater things and that I have skills to do those things I want to do, but the problem is that I am not given the opportunity to show it for no one believes in me. I want to stand out and I want to shine, I don’t want to settle for the sayings that there would always be winners and losers. Life is unfair and it totally sucks. I just have to deal with it right?

I don’t care anymore that’s why I just want to live life as it is: boring and again so unfair. There is nothing in store for me anyway. If this is my destiny, then fine. I’ll just drown in my misery until death takes me away in his arms. What is in life? What is happiness? I just don’t know for I can’t equate my self to any form of happiness. I don’t want to feel the pain anymore. Life for me is just torment. I try to live life and be happy but things just don’t go that way. Maybe I was just born a loser, I just have to accept it and deal with it. I just want to sleep and never wake up. I so hate life. I just exist with out any purpose because this is all that I will ever be. I just exist. What is in life for me to live it? That’s why I just sit and stare at people because I envy them so much because they are just so happy with their lives. I just exist.

Why Does Loving Someone Hurt? Unconditional Love?

Yehey! For the second time I have written here something about me! I'll write something longer the next time!

Okay, let's talk about love. Have you ever loved someone yet you know that that person will never really love you back? Well that is how I feel! This person that I love will be hidden under the name, Babyface. Besides, I really don't know her name. I just always see her at school during lunch time. She's so cute and so white and flawless. She really looks like a baby and that what attracted me to her. She is a goddess that had come down to heaven to make me suffer likje this. She is from 2-Brebeuf of Xavier University High School. (by the way, please visit http://www.friendster.com and be my friend, vincentb88@yahoo.com) It hurts me becuase I am madly deeply and crazily in love with this person. Imagine, I asked someone to take her picture using a friend's Nokia 7250 because I can't stand a day with out me loooking at her pic. Maybe i'll ask someone to take her picture with my digicam so that I don't have to bother and irritate my friend, Miranda everday.

Unconditional love, you love someone even if that person does not love you back. I'm really crazy... why am I so head over heels for this person? Uuurgh! Help me! Why can't you just be able to tell the person you love everything? Maybe the fear of rejection? Babyface! I sooooo love you! Aaah!

You really are so perfect... Sorry if I'm boring you okay? The next time I'll post something here I'll make sure that other people can relate. Thanks for reading. E-mail me or anything or if you ever want to add your comments or stories or what ever to this blog just tell me! vincentb88@yahoo.com

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