Respect & Cura Personalis
A peek into the deranged mind of a 30-something guy as he lives his life as a Registered Nurse and as a Filipino-Canadian.
Saturday, April 14, 2007
Respect & Cura Personalis
Friday, April 13, 2007
Some Updates on my Life

Hmm... let me see. For the past days I've been doing nothing but watch anime! I'm really bored. It's not that I'm getting sick of anime, I love anime but I'm getting bored of this repetitiveness. My soul is searching for school... oh no... did I just say what I said? I'm so missing school right now. But when I'm at school I'd hate it. Why can't I make up my mind?
I got my grades and I really can't believe I got such grades! I didn't even study that much... I don't feel that I'm deserving of such grades... Anyway, it's just a sign that we can actually do anything if we put our hearts and soul into it.
Oh yes for the anime part! I recommend Death Note! It's really cool (what a useless description hehehe). Death Note centers around a high school student who decides to rid the world of evil with the help of a supernatural notebook that kills anyone whose name is written in it. It has a very complex plot and it includes characters with great detective skills. This is a classic example of anime that would really make you think for a while hehehe. I love it! You should really watch it! It has a lot of twists and it really is a work of art.
Sunday, April 1, 2007
Crossroads
I am now at the crossroad of my life. Before me lie roads that lead to my future. There are doors that are now left open but will soon close as time passes by. I am confused at which road I should take. Should I take the road less traveled or the road that everyone takes? My want for greatness and at the same time my desire for true happiness is tearing me apart. I have to choose one. It is true that we can’t take everything and that we do have to make sacrifices for one thing to work out.
People say that we may take different paths but it doesn’t matter because we will always be lead to what is destined for us. But I don’t agree… we shape our own destiny. We are the masters of our lives and fate has nothing to do with it.
I am scared of the future yes because I don’t know what will happen. But as with my past experiences, I learned that I cannot forever stay and be content with the present. Or worst, I should never linger with my past failures and stupid mistakes. Ok, I think I am repeating myself when I say that there is nothing wrong with committing mistakes, the crime would be not doing anything at all.
Life is so confusing… and why am I always writing about this stuff? Maybe it’s for me to constantly remind myself of my real priorities. I know that I am blessed and have more than others so I shouldn’t waste what the Lord has given me.
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Being Hot-tempered Is So Uncool
Hmm… I wonder why people are so hot tempered these days? Hmm… This has totally been an eye-opener to me. In all the people who easily get mad and then would vent out their frustrations by saying awful things to someone, I see myself. I wonder why I just realized this now? I wonder why I am so thick headed that I would make hasty decisions like never ever speaking to a person that hurt me. Of course, it is an escape mechanism from being hurt but damn, I really should polish my conflict resolution skills.
I have been a very angry person, yes I have to admit this. I am so angry that I only bring pain and hurt into my life… buhuhu… well being angry sometimes is quite good to inform everyone that I am not to be messed with!
But really, being angry is not a good thing. It might lead to cardiovascular diseases and it is a big cause of stress, something that I have too much because of my chosen future career. And being angry clouds your ability to think rationally, plus for the fact that it gets you nowhere but more hurt and bigger conflicts.
So people, why not try to be more happy right? Smile and get a life… er… I mean have a happy life… if you know what I mean. Yes! I choose to be happy. And that means getting rid of stress factors… but doesn’t that mean saying good-bye to certain people? Hmm… Well, avoiding is one way to prevent any more conflicts, although you don’t really solve anything. But I am a happy person and I don’t intend to hold grudges. If people wants to reconcile then the better…
So… from now on… I decide to be happy… no more grudges… no more hating… and no more judging a person.
Hmm… let’s just see where life will lead me now… onwards with my life…
I am happy. I am at peace… and oh yes, I love myself.