Nasty People

I don't know why some people could be so nasty. Why can't people be more civilized and be more human when they deal with other people. What is it with people who live in western countries that they stop thinking of other people and be very selfish and only think about what they want every single day.

I have dealt with rude and disrespectful customers at my work and I showed them that they can't step on me. Don't they think that I'm just some poor Filipino contract worker who will take their crap because I'm afraid to lose my job. Because I will really take them on!

But there are also very nice customers who are kind, understanding, and patient so I'm not always on the guard putting up my I'll-Kill-You face. As I have gained experience with dealing with people I have learned not to displace my frustrations to my kind customers.

I've learned to treat people the way they treat me in a case-to-case basis. If you treat me with respect, I will respect you. if you don't, then go to hell, I won't take your crap.

Imagine a world where people will think of other people's feelings before their own... if they have feelings to begin with that is.

Web Hosting

A lot of people were asking me how I was able to make my own website. Well making a website and designing it and stuff is pretty darn simple. There are thousands of free website templates that anyone can download on the internet. But if you really want to make your very own personal website then the very first thing you must do is find the right web host!

But the thing is there are thousands of web hosts out there and it so hard to find the right one that is really worth your money. And as I have told my friends, I highly recommend web hosting choice.

Unlike any website that reviews and rates web hosting sites, web hosting choice is totally unique as it is a great resource for total newbies and beginners in the world of blogging and website building. So if you have no idea what a host is and you don't understand a thing I'm saying, well web hosting choice is definitely perfect for you! They will give you information to start out and help you find the right web hosting site for you and give you tips on how to check if a site is a scam or not.

M.I.A. & Work

After annoying a certain someone to tell me what she meant by M.I.A. I finally am able to blog again after being Missing In Action (MIA) for so long.

Well not that long, I was able to make the pathetic I'm so depressed and want to kill myself post. Finally, after being given two straight days of vacation (thanks to a co-worker who wanted more hours of work) I am now able to take a break and appreciate the beauty of life with work out of my mind.

After thinking things through I now realize why I had such a nasty breakdown. Well as the saying goes, "If you're too nice, people will step on you", this is true in my case. I don't know why I am able to say no and be awful to my family who I love yet I am able to allow complete strangers to take advantage of me and to step on me. You see I had the power to say NO to my manager but she was nice to me and she needed someone to work at 11 pm to 7 am because no one in their right mind would agree to work alone at night doing everything.

But because of my stupidity I worked 11 pm to 7 am even if it was my day-off and the following day I had to go home at 7 am and go back to work later on at 3 pm to 11 pm. I was truly pissed at myself for being Mr. Kindy Ass. I should have let the answering machine take her call but when she (my manager) called for the second time I picked up thinking it was important, now I truly learned my lesson. I will not pick up the phone if my work is calling for me when I'm on day-off. And if they ask me to work at night the answer would be a definite NO! No more Mr. Nicey Pants.

If you think that I'm over reacting well you are definitely wrong. Did you know that even in my sleep I still dream that I'm still working. And I totally get no rest at all because in my mind I outside my bed room is the store where I work in. I have to remind myself that I am in my bedroom and I am sleeping.

I have sacrificed enough for my work, I don't want to give up my sanity too.

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The Cycle of Depression

How do I feel now? Well let's just say that I'm feeling down. I feel as if I'm not going anywhere and that I'm stuck. A sense of impending doom if you may say. I'm afraid that I may not reach my full potentials. I want to find the next nearest tall building and jump off from it.

I don't want to work at a low-paying job anymore. I know that I am lucky to get a job that pays $9.50 an hour but this is not what I envisioned myself to be. I'm so sick and tired waiting for my college to evaluate my transcripts. I want to study right now so that I could finish my degree earlier.

Sure I can afford to buy the things I want with my present job and survive but the problem is this is not what I want to be for the rest of my life. I know that I could do more and be more than who I am right now.

My whole integrity is being challenged and I can't stop thinking that moving to Canada was a huge mistake, for my part at least. I should have finished my studies back in the Philippines.

My job is no bundle of joy either. I hate my job. I am asked again to work tonight at 11 pm to 7 am and next Sunday they're sending me to another Tim Hortons and I have absolutely no idea where that is.

I'm tired... I'm losing hope. To others this may be such a simple problem with such a simple solution but it isn't that easy believe me.

Madonna

I was watching a documentary of Madonna (Yup she has a documentary! She's a Legend of Pop!) when it said something about the controversial American Dream of Madonna. Well of course, my curiosity got the best of me and I searched for the said video. Well I didn't have to search to far thanks to Youtube:

The music video combined with the song brings out an explosive message of how US supremacy is affecting third world countries. If the US wants to wage wars on other countries then they can. But I think that the deeper message is not really being anti-US but rather being an anti-war.

War brings so much death and violence. There is nothing that war can solve. Period.