Ga-Gym Ka Part?

I could honestly say that I go to the gym regularly. I paid for a monthly gym membership so it's forcing me to go to the gym everyday (I want my money's worth LOL!). My gym visits would consist of doing 15 minutes of cardio then strength training for 30 to 45 min.

I've been going to the gym for two weeks now and I've been eating healthy and have deprived my sell of junk food but I seriously don't see any major weight loss especially in my stomach area. People weren't kidding when they said it's easier to gain fat than lose it. And boy, I have been packing fat in ever since I was born. I always had an excuse not to be active and exercise but now that I've joined a gym that's open 24 hours, 7 days a week, I have no  excuse not to exercise. 

I just wish that my determination to lose weight and shed unnecessary baggage comes to fulfillment. On the plus side, my stamina has improved and I could see my muscles being toned... I wish my abdominal region gets toned and flat as well.

It would have been better if I had a gym buddy though, it will make going to the gym more fun and it will surely motivate me more.

Love at First Sight

I'm supposed to be studying right now for my midterm exam tomorrow but I just wanted to get this off my chest. How can someone fall in love with someone else after meeting that person for one time? By someone, I mean me of course. I don't believe in love at first sight and I believe that it may only be infatuation but why do I miss this certain someone so badly after parting just a couple of hours ago?

Is it because I'm physically attracted to this person or is it because I am totally comfortable with this person's personality? Are my feelings similar to those of someone who looks up or admire another person? What is the boundary between admiration and love? What is love? 

This person is totally amazing and I want to be like this person in the future. I admit that I don't go out and meet other people in person but this was something different. It was something special, I feel blessed for such an encounter.

The downside to all of this is that I know this person isn't really into me and it's just another one way love/admiration. It's sad but that is how it rolls, but I am still happy that I met this person today. Will we meet again in the future? Or the real question is, will this person even want to see me ever again? Who knows.

I'm hoping for the best but I won't go stalker/fan-boy with this person since by experience, being obsessed with someone won't help with the relationship or friendship. As the old cliche goes, set the one you love free, if they come back then you're meant to be.

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Dissapointment and Regrets

These past few days have been horrible for me. I feel like my life is slowly crumbling apart. The warmth that I felt as I was surrounded by friends feel like a dream that I am shaking off as I wake up to the ruckus of the real world. I am damaged, a person cast off from the rest of the people for being different. I'm all alone... how sad.

I know it's too late to regret and feel sorry for myself for being weak... poor, miserable, outcast. How pitiful. How I wish I had the strength and the patience. I wish I had held my tongue and kept my emotions in check, all is lost. There's no turning back, I have to face my mistakes.

Disgust. It left a bad taste in my mouth. Humiliated. I cannot let them see my shame. Ridiculed. I just want to hide under a rock and disappear.

This is why I never let people in my life, as it only lower my defenses.  I feel as if something was taken away from me and I can't just function well anymore.

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Regret... by *Mikeinel

Fixing Your Credit History

Having a good credit history is very important. Without a credit history or if you have a bad credit history, no lending institution will ever lend you money so say good bye to your dream car or dream vacation. Even getting a student loan from the government requires you to have a good credit history. If you have bad credit then you should really look for credit repair services.

I don't have bad credit right now but it helps to plan out scenarios to find a contingency plans for the "what if's".If I had bad credit then I would surely want to fix my credit right away. There are so many debt re-consolidation services out there but you have to find the right one that will help you from the very beginning by obtaining your credit history for you. Some companies would actually charge several hidden costs, when you're doing all the work.

That's why I would really consider DSI Solutions for help with my credit company. They are one of the best companies that offer a full return of payments if ever your unsatisfied with their service. This will surely give a lot of people a big sigh of relief since other companies wouldn't give a refund even if they weren't able to help you at all.

Thinking about credit history is intimidating at first, but this is why having a reliable company who you could trust changes everything.

I Want a Break from Life

I hope who ever thought of the statement, "Take a break from life... attend nursing school", isn't serious because if he/she is then he/she has a serious problem. Nursing school is not taking a break from life because nursing becomes your life: studying, classes, more studying, and if you need to work like me then you're totally screwed.

I am so tired! I don't want to go to school anymore, I don't want to work anymore, all I want to do is stay at home and sleep. Unlike most students, I actually prioritize my sleeping over studying so I'm less stressed than they are. It's just ironic that I actually skip school just so I could study.

I'm just glad that at least one of my courses are going to be over next week so I'm very excited. Word of advice: If you don't like the teaching skills of your teacher during the first few days, drop it or look for another teacher. Well I prefer, self-study over listening to someone who dwells on things that he will never quiz you on later anyway.

On a scale of 1 to 10, with 1 as the lowest and 10 as the highest, my stress level is at 8. I'm about to cave in. If it wasn't for the few hours I have before I go to work or the free time I have before I go to sleep I would be insane right now.

I just hate it when my mom makes me do things during my "free time" because honestly I go to school the entire morning and I go to work the entire night so NO I don't want to do anything else and I just want my ME time. I don't want to tell this to her but I want to say that I want my rest and relaxation time because you were the one who placed me in this predicament anyway. I NEVER wanted an effing expensive car because I don't want to work while I'm at school but I did buy it because you said that you'll pay for HALF of it which you're NOT. Plus you've been buying stuff off my credit card and you've never paid me back. I don't really care if you don't pay me back but just stop buying useless things like a Bose home theatre system. Like seriously? I don't even want to eat out since I'm broke and you could afford to buy useless things? She also bought a barbecue grill yesterday which I'm so sure we will NEVER use. I'd love to ask for more day off's at work but I can't since I have to pay my credit card debt, debt that I didn't incur but my mom did. I tried asking money from her to pay for a course at school but she uses it instead to buy a freaking Bose speakers? Seriously?

So yes, I need a break from living. I don't want to travel anywhere cause that will lead me to more debt. I just want to stay at home and chill.

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