A peek into the deranged mind of a 30-something guy as he lives his life as a Registered Nurse and as a Filipino-Canadian.
Sunday, April 1, 2007
Crossroads
I am now at the crossroad of my life. Before me lie roads that lead to my future. There are doors that are now left open but will soon close as time passes by. I am confused at which road I should take. Should I take the road less traveled or the road that everyone takes? My want for greatness and at the same time my desire for true happiness is tearing me apart. I have to choose one. It is true that we can’t take everything and that we do have to make sacrifices for one thing to work out.
People say that we may take different paths but it doesn’t matter because we will always be lead to what is destined for us. But I don’t agree… we shape our own destiny. We are the masters of our lives and fate has nothing to do with it.
I am scared of the future yes because I don’t know what will happen. But as with my past experiences, I learned that I cannot forever stay and be content with the present. Or worst, I should never linger with my past failures and stupid mistakes. Ok, I think I am repeating myself when I say that there is nothing wrong with committing mistakes, the crime would be not doing anything at all.
Life is so confusing… and why am I always writing about this stuff? Maybe it’s for me to constantly remind myself of my real priorities. I know that I am blessed and have more than others so I shouldn’t waste what the Lord has given me.
Saturday, March 31, 2007
Being Hot-tempered Is So Uncool
Hmm… I wonder why people are so hot tempered these days? Hmm… This has totally been an eye-opener to me. In all the people who easily get mad and then would vent out their frustrations by saying awful things to someone, I see myself. I wonder why I just realized this now? I wonder why I am so thick headed that I would make hasty decisions like never ever speaking to a person that hurt me. Of course, it is an escape mechanism from being hurt but damn, I really should polish my conflict resolution skills.
I have been a very angry person, yes I have to admit this. I am so angry that I only bring pain and hurt into my life… buhuhu… well being angry sometimes is quite good to inform everyone that I am not to be messed with!
But really, being angry is not a good thing. It might lead to cardiovascular diseases and it is a big cause of stress, something that I have too much because of my chosen future career. And being angry clouds your ability to think rationally, plus for the fact that it gets you nowhere but more hurt and bigger conflicts.
So people, why not try to be more happy right? Smile and get a life… er… I mean have a happy life… if you know what I mean. Yes! I choose to be happy. And that means getting rid of stress factors… but doesn’t that mean saying good-bye to certain people? Hmm… Well, avoiding is one way to prevent any more conflicts, although you don’t really solve anything. But I am a happy person and I don’t intend to hold grudges. If people wants to reconcile then the better…
So… from now on… I decide to be happy… no more grudges… no more hating… and no more judging a person.
Hmm… let’s just see where life will lead me now… onwards with my life…
I am happy. I am at peace… and oh yes, I love myself.
Friday, March 30, 2007
Dirty Mind Test
Dirty Mind Test
Take a look at the picture first...
So, what did you see?
Now proceed and read below to find an explanation of what you really saw.
I'm sure you will find this very interesting.
Additional note: This is a test to determine if you already have a corrupted mind. If it's hard for you to find the dolphins within 3 seconds, your mind is indeed corrupted.