Busy Busy Busy

These days I have been always so busy! busy! busy! But I never exert that much effort in my studies at all these days but I still get so tired and stressed. Maybe I’m just suffering from a severe case of laziness because all I do when I reach my boarding house is sleep, sleep, sleep… I feel like Hitome in Vision of Escaflawne who just wants to sleep and fade away… hmm… fading away… this is what I want to happen to me someday… just fade away with no one ever noticing… I want to rest… Or maybe I just need strength. I need strength to be the best that I can be. I thought that I can find that kind of strength in someone else but I realize that I am the only one who can really draw that strength from me… It all relies on me…

Return Demo Tomorrow

I am so scared... actually I'm lying... I don't know why I still can afford to goof around even when I know that tomorrow is our return deminstration for the bed making... Is this a sign that I am so indolent?! Buhuhu... I hope not.

School has been tiring as usual but I am still surviving I think. My grades are satisfactory or fair but I'mnot satisfied at all. I know that I can do better but I just lack the energy to do things but starting now I will do all my best and I'll priorotize my studies over anything else.

I'm so sleepy already... I so lack sleep... ZzZzZ...

what's been happening

Life for me is bitter-sweet and I have learned to embrace anything and everything that life is all about. I'm still quite happy and I intend to be happy and I won't let stress wear me out. I have my special someone now to support me and keepmy spirits up.

It's been quite a while since my last post... things have been very crazy lately. But here I am now finding time to blurt all my feelings and ideas out hehehe....

My Headache

My head is pounding. I have a lot of things going through my head. I wonder if I have migraine or something because the pain is unbearable.

I have a lot of problems and they seem to pile up as the next school semester approaches. I need a fresh start but how can I have a fresh start when I already am carrying a lot of burden on my shoulders?

Speaking of weights, burdens, and baggage… I wish that I could move to another boarding house. I don’t want to move because of the people in my current boarding house because my landlords and board mates are great but I really need to find a place where I won’t be easily distracted. I’m doing all of this for my grades. The QPI requirement that I have to meet up has already become higher since I’m already in AHSE II so I need all the concentration I can get.

It’s really so hot today! The heat and my headache are driving me insane! There is no one I can talk to right now… I’m so sad…