Searching for Happiness

The main goal of everyone is to find happiness… we all want to be happy… and every one deserves to be happy. Different things and different reasons make us happy. For some, power, fame, and wealth give them happiness, or so they believe. To some a simple laugh or smile from the person they really care about could inspire them and keep them going throughout the day. Many would do anything to seek for their happiness, even to the point of hurting other people. Some find their happiness and some don’t. Life is unfair and cruel, not everyone gets a chance in attaining a lived happily ever after ending.

But what is crueler is not knowing what could make you happy. Every one search for happiness but how can you find it when you don’t even know its shape or form? It is like searching for a person in a crowd when you don’t even know his or her face and name.

What makes me happy? I just don’t know. Am I happy? I don’t know. Maybe the thing or someone that could make me happy is already with me but I just don’t know it.

Depressed

I want to fly. I want to soar high above the skies. I want to feel the wind rushing through my face. I want to go far, far away from all my problems and sorrow. I want to feel the warmth of the sun. I want the numbness and cold to disappear. I want to feel, I want to love. I want to be free from the chains of sorrow.

But there are times that my heart tires out and I lose the will to go on. These are the times that I want to climb the highest mountains and swim the deepest seas. I want to disappear and just fade away from the face of this earth. I want to sleep and never wake up. I want to just cease to exist… because I want to live.

Again on depression…

Yes, I’m depressed again… But it’s not really a bad thing. See, I was able to write two posts but they were cut short because I snapped out of my depression. I just wish that I had an internal switching mechanism so that I can just turn my depression on and off when needed. Hay naku… let’s just hope I’ll be depressed again soon so I can write something Hehehe…

Breakaway by Kelly Clarkson

Breakaway
Kelly Clarkson

Grew up in a small town
And when the rain would fall down
I'd just stare out my window
Dreaming of what could be
And if I'd end up happy
I would pray

Trying hard to reach out
But when I tried to speak out
Felt like no one could hear me
Wanted to belong here
But something felt so wrong here
So I'd pray
I could break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away

Wanna feel the warm breeze
Sleep under a palm tree
Feel the rush of the ocean
Get onboard a fast train
Travel on a jetplane
Far away
And break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
I'll do what it takes till I touch the sky.
Make a wish, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget all the ones that I love.
I'll take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away

Buildings with a hundred floors
Swinging with revolving doors
Maybe I don’t know where they’ll take me
Gotta keep movin on movin on
Fly away
Break away

I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly.
Though it’s not easy to tell you goodbye
Take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away.
Out of the darkness and into the sun.
But I won't forget the place I come from
I gotta take a risk, take a chance,
Make a change, and break away
Breakaway
Break away