Out of School Youth

Out of School Youth

Yup! I’m an official out of school youth… cause I don’t have anymore clases hehehe. I’m going to be bored at home for a while. Thank God that I have summer classes. I’m quite excited to know whether I got good grades, enough to keep my scholarship that is… Hmm… fingers crossed.

What do I do for fun? Nothing much, just surf the net, watch anime, play pc games, in other words… I’m damn bored… not to mention that no one is texting me huhuhu…

On Elfen Lied

Damn Elfen Lied is so cool! I just love the blood and the bodies being sliced to pieces! And the plot is pretty good too! Plus it has nudity people, lol. It’s like a twisted love story… with supernatural powers and stuff… This is another classic example of how man’s heartlessness and abuses especially to the people who are tagged as “different” comes back at them with a full blow. I can’t blame the diclonius for killing without mercy after all the torture and emotional trauma they went through… but to know more about Elfen Lied just read this:

The story begins with a naked young girl named Lucy escaping under odd circumstances from an insular research facility off the coast of Kamakura in the Kanagawa Prefecture of Japan. Lucy manages to nonchalantly dismember and slay a fair number of the staff and guards with a form of seemingly supernatural power and gets outside. A sniper is seen trying to shoot her, only managing to ricochet a bullet off her metal helmet. Lucy then falls off a cliff into the sea, bleeding from her head but ultimately surviving and evading the research staff.

Lucy is not a normal human but rather a diclonius: a mutant variant of humans with two small horns on their heads (hence the name diclonius) that resemble cat ears. The diclonius race possesses telekinetic powers through use of their "vectors", invisible arms that they control with a number and length of reach depending on the diclonius.

The day after Lucy's escape, a boy named Kohta arrives at Kamakura to meet his cousin Yuka. Kohta has come to study at the local university and has been given lodging at an old, family-owned inn, the "Maple (楓, Kaede) Inn", provided he acts as the caretaker. After meeting with Yuka, they go for a visit to the beach and find Lucy washed up on the shore, still naked and bleeding from her head. The head trauma Lucy experienced causes her to develop a split personality. In stark contrast to the cold and sadistic Lucy, this personality is completely docile, harmless and is incapable at first of saying anything other than "Nyū". Not knowing what to do with her, Kohta and Yuka take her back to the inn to look after her and name her "Nyū". Yuka quickly decides that it will be best that she also live at the inn.

Kohta, Nyū, and Yuka begin settling into their life at the inn and Nyū begins to dredge up painful repressed memories from Kohta's past. Meanwhile, the researchers from the laboratory where Lucy was held begin searching for her, dispatching both human and diclonius agents to hunt her down.

On Love

I have heard of this very interesting myth by Plato and I believe that we should spend some time to think about this… According to Plato man was once complete. Man was originally an hermaphrodite, a being composed of one body both of man and woman. The original man had 4 legs, 4 arms, an oblong body, and of course two heads.

It is said that man was so unruly and threatened the gods that Zeus punished man by splitting man into two, man and woman thus bringing us to our present state, wounded and incomplete… This is why we are constantly in pain and desire to find our other half, the person that would complete us. Love is said to be a god that encompasses both the world of man and the world of gods, it is this love that heals our wounds and bring us together with the one we love, our soulmate.

It is said that to be able to be called completely human, we must find our other halves to be complete.

But I say that this is stupid. Ok, fine I do feel lonely at times and yes I want to be loved and want someone to love but for me, we already are complete. I do not want to base my happiness on anyone else because it is because of me and my own doing that I am able to do great things and I don’t need anyone else to live and survive (except my parents though, hehehe).

But love is such a troublesome topic…. let me end it here…

Paralyzed

I woke up today thinking that this was a good day to die. I'm in so much pain right now, and I'm not just talking about emotional pain but physical pain too. Damn, my shoulders are killing me (really it is).

I'm tired of living, I feel that I have already lived my life to the fullest and there is nothing else that excites me....

I don't want to move on... I'm paralyzed, I feel that I have nowhere else to go but here and now... I have no future...

What is to look forward in the future anyway? I have so much love to give but no one loves me back...

Oh no, I'm in my depressed mode again... but I'll be out of this sooner or later...

Anyway, I was really shocked last Wednesday because I was Spiritually empty and I really searched for God. Hmm... It only proves that we do indeed need to have faith so that we would be in a state of being ultimately concerned and all our other concerns would just follow... Hmm... I'm quoting the Philosophy of Paul Tillich where faith provides us a center so that we would be integrated or in other words so that we don't fall apart...


I'm really bored...

Carmen Electra

What poise! Even when she fell down her confidence completely overshadowed her fall.