Paralyzed

I woke up today thinking that this was a good day to die. I'm in so much pain right now, and I'm not just talking about emotional pain but physical pain too. Damn, my shoulders are killing me (really it is).

I'm tired of living, I feel that I have already lived my life to the fullest and there is nothing else that excites me....

I don't want to move on... I'm paralyzed, I feel that I have nowhere else to go but here and now... I have no future...

What is to look forward in the future anyway? I have so much love to give but no one loves me back...

Oh no, I'm in my depressed mode again... but I'll be out of this sooner or later...

Anyway, I was really shocked last Wednesday because I was Spiritually empty and I really searched for God. Hmm... It only proves that we do indeed need to have faith so that we would be in a state of being ultimately concerned and all our other concerns would just follow... Hmm... I'm quoting the Philosophy of Paul Tillich where faith provides us a center so that we would be integrated or in other words so that we don't fall apart...


I'm really bored...

Carmen Electra

What poise! Even when she fell down her confidence completely overshadowed her fall.

Tired

Damn... as expected the finals is very bloody... project here, famoly care plan there, movie shoot here, everywhere I look I still have unfinished business.

Actually I just feel tired but my friends are commenting that I'm not my self, I'm easily irritated, or in short bunt-out... I don't know why I'm like this...

I just hope that my body and mind doesn't fail me. I hope that I can get through finals with ease... hopefully... I'm just tired... who am I kidding... I'm in a deep state of depression and I want to give up.

It's a good thing that I have this special someone who makes me want to go on. Love can really rejuvinate you hehehe...

Friendship

BE WITH ME