Friday, July 23, 2010

Just Like Fire and Ice


As the old cliché goes, "Friends of the same feather, flock together". I couldn't agree more.

Lately I had a sudden realization that some people that I hang out with are not who I thought they were. I mean, at first I thought we had chemistry and that we can be friends but as time progressed I sensed that there was a huge gap between us.

Just like a human cell, I see people as having a  major histocompatibility complex (MHC). MHC's are protein complexes outside a cell that are presented to lymphocytes to identify the cell as one of the body's cells. 

Some would agree with me that there are just some people who we can't get along with no matter what and this is an example of what I'm talking about. It's not a difference in belief, race, or economic status that causes this gap. In my case, we are exactly the same but something is just off. I just feel out of place. It's not that I am left out but I just feel that we're just too different. 

Life just never ceases to give me complications. Well, as I've always said before, I'd rather be alone than be in a group and feel alone.

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Photo credits to =anikakinka

Thursday, July 22, 2010

Breathing Under Water


Feels like I spent all this time talking to walls
Feels like I gotta let go of the way it was before
Are you really there? Are you made of stone?
Am I talking to someone or am I here all alone?

Are you alive, don't you feel, feel, feel?
Show me you're here, show me your tears
Don't you feel, feel, feel, feel?

Show me, hold me, speak up and tell me something
Change my mind before it's too late
Are you alive? Show me you're human
Can't you feel, feel, feel, feel?

Seems like you're stuck in a daze, slipping away, away
I'm sick of trying to reach you, can't you say what's on your mind?
Baby, we're losing the race, too far behind, behind
Tell me that I'm not the only one who can try, who can fight the wall

Are you alive, don't you feel, feel, feel?
Show me you're here, show me your tears
Don't you feel, feel, feel, feel?

Show me, hold me, speak up and tell me something
Change my mind before it's too late
Are you alive? Show me you're human
Can't you feel, feel, feel, feel?

Sometimes the words they don't get through
What really speaks is what you do
Open up, let me inside, just wanna find you

Are you alive? Are you? Are you?
Show me you're here, show me your tears
Don't you feel, feel, feel, feel?

Show me, hold me, speak up and tell me something
Change my mind before it's too late
Are you alive? Show me you're human
Can't you feel, feel, feel, feel?

Wake up, are you dead?
Don't you feel, feel, feel, feel?
Show me, hold me, speak up and tell me something

You could only imagine how annoyed I was when I had to reformat my computer. All my files were lost and it was such a pain to re-download all my softwares and files. On the bright side, I was able to look around for new songs to add to my music collection.

Guess who I rediscovered on the internet? Marie Digby! Sure this song is already a year old but this is the first time I've heard it and I fell in love with the song instantaneously. It felt like the song was made for me because this is exactly how I feel towards someone right now.

It's frustrating how you put yourself out there hoping that they will figure out how you feel towards them only to be disappointed in the end  because the person who your trying to reach across is either stupid or he/she just can't find the proper reaction to the emotions you're displaying.

Ah! Lately I've been really emo... Oh well. I think I'll just channel all my emotions towards exercising or better yet cleaing my room.

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Things Can't Buy You Happiness

I'm in a bit of a pinch right now. Although I know that buying things won't really make me happy but somehow I'm craving to get my hands on  an Apple Macbook Pro 13! 

I have an urgent desire to get one and I know for a fact that I will indeed be happy if I get one. Do I need a new computer? NO. Do I have the money to buy one? NO. Do I really need to buy a  Mac? NO.

Logic and reason tells me NOT to get a Mac but my emotions and my psyche tells me to get one no matter the cost.

I should have followed my instincts and should have bought something that I wanted rather than buying something that I thought was the best buy, a Dell Studio XPS 13. I know, this is like old news already because I've written about this in this post and on here as well but lately I've had a change of heart and I'm really pumped up on getting a MacBook Pro and I want to get one on my birthday as a gift to myself.

The only problem now is the money... but I know I'll be happy and content after I bought it... I am such an impulsive buyer.

Friday, July 9, 2010

Patient Abuse - Can You Take It

One of the most daunting challenges faced by both inexperienced and experienced nurses alike is patient abuse. Abuse of patients by medical staff is uncommon, but widely reported. Less widely addressed are the abuses dealt out to nursing staff by patients. An inexperienced nurse entering the profession for the first time must develop strategies for dealing with this aggression. If they don’t, they run the risk of becoming disillusioned with their profession.

Abuse as “part of the job”.

A study conducted by Curtin University of Technology reported in May of 2010 that two thirds of all nurses had experienced violence in the workplace. These incidents were only reported one in six times. 92 per cent involved verbal abuse, 69 per cent physical threats and 52 per cent involved physical assault. On average, the nurses were confronted with 46 violent events each year. That’s nearly one incident a week.

Why would so many incidents go unreported?

Nurses are generally motivated by a desire to help others. This makes it less likely they will report incidences of abuse by patients. They believe the abusive environment is a part of the job.

Moreover, nurses have often invested a great deal of time and money in obtaining their nursing degrees and licenses. If they’ve taken out thousands of dollars in student loans, they won’t be able to simply walk away from their chosen career.

Abuse contributes to the nursing shortage.

Statistics show that there are enough people in the United States with an RN certification to solve the nursing shortage two times over. There is a strong possibility that the violence experienced by nurses during their workday might be linked to the reluctance of licensed RN’s to work in a healthcare setting.

Having an adequate number of nurses on staff is crucial to preserving patient health. Patients die when there are too few nurses to care for their needs. Measures seeking to address the nursing shortage should start in hospitals and health care institutions. We should expect patients to treat the nursing staff with the same respect they would give to any other professional. If nurses are expected to simply stand by and take the abuse dished out by difficult patients, the nursing profession will continue to experience a shortage of willing volunteers.

Bio: Alexis Bonari is a freelance writer and blog junkie. She is currently a resident blogger at onlinedegrees.org, researching areas of accredited online degrees. In her spare time, she enjoys square-foot gardening, swimming, and avoiding her laptop.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Veritas Liberabit Vos: The Truth Shall Set You Free


Ever since I started going to a Jesuit institution, I was always told of the saying "Veritas Liberabot Vos" which some of you may know is Latin for "The Truth Shall Set You Free". I am an advocate of being honest. My conscience always bothers me whenever I lie, especially when I know that there are no lies that will forever be kept secret.

Although, there are several occasions when you have to lie to protect people from getting hurt and these are our so called "white lies". White lies have saved my relationship with several people especially when I have nothing good to say to them. I can't just tell someone in the face that they looked terrible if they wanted my personal opinion on their physical appearance. 

Well the most common reason why people lie is to protect themselves. I myself have a lot of skeletons in my closet and I do not want to reveal these secrets out of fear that my friends and family will turn their backs on me once they've found out my dirty secrets.

Lies are inherently evil because they are meant to deceive people but there are times when one has to commit a necessary evil for the greater good. I will continue to hold on to my secrets and the secrets that other people has trusted to me. Although I want to share my skeletons to the world, I have to create a different blog under a false name. This might be the best idea after all. I want to create a blog under the cloak of anonymity so that I can truly express my true self with out fear of retribution.

I just hope that my dirty secrets won't haunt me in the future.


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Photo credits to Eternal Stickers