Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Sometimes I Wish I Wasn't Filipino

Don't get me wrong. I am not ashamed of being Filipino and I do not deny the fact that I was born and raised in the Philippines. It's just that if I wasn't a Filipino my life right now would be way easier.

For starters, if I was not a Filipino, I would not have to go through the painful uprooting of my happy and content life in the Philippines and re-establish a new life here in Canada. Although the Canadian culture is great I hate having to lose my status as a student because I'm having an extremely difficult time getting into the nursing program here in Edmonton. If I was born as a Canadian, I wouldn't have to go through the painful hiatus from school.

If I was not Filipino, I wouldn't be a victim of Filipino mentality where I am rebuked for being who I am. It's not my fault that I act and speak flamboyantly. I was raised to be assertive and self-confident. I cannot help it if I want to pronounce words properly because I am an educated Atenean. Like leave me alone will you? Is it my fault if I like to dress well and have nice gadgets?

But then again, I have to ask myself whether the root of my problem is because of me being Filipino or me migrating to a foreign land. Or maybe the main cause of my problems is my pride. I don't want people to think that I am just a contract worker (not that there's nothing wrong with being a foreign worker). Maybe if I didn't have so much pride and insecurities I may have the chance of living a happy and content life.

But again, I do not want to settle for mediocrity. I will not accept the fact that I didn't get the chance to finish college because I had to move here in Canada. I still have so many goals that I want to accomplish.

Tuesday, July 28, 2009

Exciting Phone Chat

I have heard friends talking about this free chat service that Talk121 is offering. I didn't have a clue about what they were talking about so I asked one of them to enlighten me with this matter. They then introduced me to the world of phone chat lines, live chat, and voice personals.

They told me that it was kinda like being on a social networking website where you get to meet new very interesting girls and guys. The only difference is that hearing someone's voice when you chat is more intimate than reading words. You really get a feel of who the person is if you hear them talk live.

And it is much easier for you to express your real feelings and you feel safer because callers don't have to give their numbers so you don't have to fear someone calling you on your phone and that your privacy is respected.

So if you're lonely and bored why not get on the phone right now and chat live. I'm a pretty shy guy too but I find this phone chat service very interesting. I should try it sometimes.

Monday, July 20, 2009


Gosh! This guy reminds me of myself. This is how I am in the morning. I have to have to set the alarm on my iPhone and on my telephone set. I then have a 5 minute delay between the alarms so that I can "snooze" a bit more. Sometimes this tactic is very deadly because there are times when I over sleep and I end up being late.

Speaking of procrastination, I haven't folded up my laundry... I'm so lazy.

Anyway I checked out my admission status and guess what I saw? I was "Admissible". I was happy and disappointed at the same time just like when I heard that MacEwan lost some of my documents.

I was glad that there was progress in my application and I am eligible for admission but the disappointment part was when I still have to wait because I was placed on a "special wait list" because as they said there wasn't any space in the program yet.

I just hope that I get in this September! I pray, I wish, and I beg with my life.

I'm calling MacEwan tomorrow to ask if I could apply to their University and College Preparation Course in case I don't get accepted so I can study and get the chance to enter either University of Alberta or MacEwan's Nursing Program with ease because I now have Canadian education and higher grades as compared to my uncompetitive Philippine education (as so they think).

Sunday, July 19, 2009

On Life Insurance

I really didn't want to think or even plan for a future without my parents because I don't know what I would do without them. But my mom had done preparations for the unexpected and had somehow given me a blanket of protection against possible bankruptcy if ever one of my parents pass away unexpectedly.

I sat there listening to their conversation with a life insurance agent at our dinner table. I felt like it was a re-enactment of the Last Supper. My mom wanted to provide me and my brother assurance and protection against whatever might happen. We won't be left with nothing, we will be entitled to a lump sum of money that will help pay for our entire mortgage and provide us with financial stability.

Although I am very uncomfortable with this topic, it is a must. We have a lot of debt right now because we just bought a new house and car and my parents are earning just enough to pay for our debts and put food on the table. So it's still best to plan ahead for everything... even the unexpected and unwanted events.

Friday, July 17, 2009

The Beautification Project: Planters!

Our house will still be finished being constructed this November (hopefully!) but we already have plans on how to furnish it and what to add to make our future home truly become our own dream home.

The main thing that's really on my mind right now is our front lawn and our backyard. We really have to get ourselves grass, trees, and plants. And boy, I never knew trees could be so darn expensive and we also need to get permission from the government to do any digging in the ground. That's why getting garden planters is a very good idea! We should get the self-watering and frost-resistant planters because I know that we will never have the time to water plants and you already know how Canada's winter are.

Having plants inside the house isn't a bad idea either! Aside from plants inside the house helps clean 87% of indoor pollutants (based on a NASA Study) they are very relaxing and pleasing to the eye. Plants may even bring more elegance and elegance into any room especially when you use a decorative planter.

I am really so excited to move and furnish our home. I wonder what kind of plants we should buy?