Choose Your Friends Carefully

I don't know what some Filipino teenagers are thinking right now and they choose to take a path to self-destruction?! A good example? My stupid brother! He was already almost expelled for illegal possession of Marijuana and now he has entered himself into another mess and I am really frustrated about it. He has joined a "Filipino Gang" called the Bloods. If you're not familiar with this stupidity (that Filipinos are so trying hard to imitate) then let me explain what Bloods is. Bloods is a gang that has a rival gang called the Crips (the Bloods and Crips are mostly composed of Black Americans by the way). The Bloods wear red bandannas on their faces while the Crips wears blue. They have nothing better to do aside from fighting with each other late at night (or early at dawn) throwing stones at each other and disturbing the community's peace.

My brother was even very proud to say that his "gang" is established world wide, which of course is true and another fact would be that these gangs are involved in murders, robberies, drug dealing, among many other criminal pursuits. And the stupid Filipinos (here and abroad) want to imitate these gangs as their idols thinking it's cool. No wonder I received this comment about Filipinos, and I have to say I am ashamed. I am ashamed that some Filipinos are stupid enough to join the Bloods and Crips. Instead of trying to establish their lives in the US or any other part of the world as respected immigrants they want to stand out in their community as juvenile delinquents!

I wouldn't care less if they want to ruin their lives but they had to drag my stupid brother into their none sense! Every day they come to our house looking for my idiot of a brother to join them in what ever gang activity they do (riots, drug usage, and other criminal acts as vandalizing) and who again has to cover for my stupid brother? My mom. What is my brother's problem that he really wants to ruin his life? But actually I don't give a damn if he dies in his gang riots because I'm sick and tired of trying to tell him that what he's going into is wrong. My mom tried her best and even thought of sending him away somewhere far from his stupid gang but my brother told my mom, "What do you care, it's my life!" You moron! As long as you're under the roof of our parents at least have some decency as not to drag our family down with you!

I give up. He's not my child so what do I care. Let my parents handle their son's mess, it's actually their fault for always giving in to his demands and other stupidity. The videos below kind of summarizes what my brother is in to right now. He and some other mislead Filipino youths are going to be great liabilities. The government should do something before anyone gets killed.

For your information: Crips use the symbol BK which means "Blood Killas" while the Bloods use the symbol CK as "Crips Killer"... stupidity I tell you, killing each other for very low reasons...

Archbishop Oscar Cruz: A Public Sinner

Lingayen-Dagupan Archbishop Oscar Cruz said ‘public sinners’ should not be given the Holy Sacrament of Communion including, he said, President Arroyo. ‘I would not give communion to somebody receiving communion in public whom I know is a public sinner.’ Because to do so would be ‘like throwing the body and blood of Christ into the garbage.' from abs-cbnnews.com

What an awful thing to say for a person whose life is supposed to be devoted to God. What gives him the right to condemn and crucify any person (sinner or not) denying them the body and blood of Christ? If I remember the Lord's words when he was asked why he eats with known social sinners as tax collectors and this is what Jesus Christ has answered:

Those who are well have no need for a physician, but those who are sick. I came not to call the righteous but sinners. (Mark 2:15-17)

Jesus calls for us to love our fellow men but Oscar Cruz calls us to choose a stone and throw it at our President Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo. It is quite unfair that he released such statements in public. We must remember that he is just a man. He has no right to judge who are the sinners because he himself is a sinner.

In fact he is a public sinner himself. He is a liar! A public liar and he had absolutely no shame and lied. Oscar Cruz said that the media misquoted him and had taken his statement out of context that he had never said that he will refuse communion to President GMA and her family but the video recordings of his statements are very clear and are attacks directly made to the president. Video camera recordings don't lie, people do.

Quezon Rep. Danilo Suarez, along with 27 other congressmen, have urged the Catholic Bishops' Conference of the Philippines to impose sanctions on Cruz for his statements regarding the President. And if the CBC do not take actions in giving sanctions to Oscar Cruz for conduct unbecoming of an archbishop, congress is willing to take the issue to Vatican.

We have heard of so many rotten priests in the world who are guilty of rape, child molestation, and yes even corruption. Let us all Catholics unite to stop these people from abusing the holy power that was entrusted to them. These are the priests that tarnish the name of the Church and all that is holy.

Mr. Oscar Cruz for lying and being a public sinner why don't you abstain from taking the body and blood of Christ? Better yet condemn yourself like what you do to other people you tag as sinners.

The church is supposed to be an advocate of peace and love. Not hate...

You Don't Like Me? No Problem!

My friend Ellen has a younger brother who transferred to our university last year. I know that it might be difficult for him to transfer and all because he might not have friends and all. So every time he joins his sister for lunch or when they meet up at the library I had always tried my best to be nice at him (smiling and all).

But what a huge slap it is to me when his sister told me that he didn't like me and all... I forgot what Ellen and I were talking about when she brought that topic up. Of course I was quite offended with the statement and I replied, "Good! I never liked him the first time I laid eyes on him too!"

I was so infuriated! Like from all of the good deeds I've done from lending him my clothes when he needed it and being nice (which I normally don't do to strangers) he has the guts to hate me? Yeah not liking someone is the same as hate as I realized that he didn't want to be around me whenever he and his sis meets up. Like whatever dude! I was not placed in this world to please you.

Just recently I came to his home because me and my friends slept over at Ellen's house and of course he would be there because he lived there. I did my best to ignore him and I did a great job too. Ellen told him that he and I should be friends now and guess what he said? "Edgar and I are already friends..." yeah right in your dreams! I wonder when we did become friends.

I gave him my hand of friendship and I gave effort to get to know him (from sending Friendster messages and accepting his request to burn him some songs) and he just pushed my hand away. It's his lost not mine. But why am I blabbering about him anyway?

Maybe it's to share to everyone that don't be affected if anyone rejects you whenever you extend your friendship. You're not the one with the issues, they are!

My Dad a True Filipino

Filipinos have been known for being resourceful and innovative. Since the Philippines is a third world country, Filipinos have limited resources in terms of money and raw materials, that is why Filipinos would have to make do with whatever they have to be able to create or use something.

My Dad is a true Filipino then if being resourceful is a common trait with Filipinos. But I guess my dad has gone overboard with being resourceful because he is being more of a trash collector than a resourceful person and I mean it! Our house is full of trash because of him and our house looks like a slum house!

Our house is small but it wouldn't look so cheap if my dad didn't think of hanging those heart-shaped Ferrero Rocher chocolates as decorations. He thinks that it's classy to display expensive food wrappers to "show off", he doesn't even realize that he's just making a fool of himself in the process.

And another thing, we have glasses that he stores that we haven't even used but he decided to re-use those coffee glass containers. He really is so infuriating! He also refuses to buy a water glass pitcher because he insists that this is a waste of money because we could just re-use those 2 Liter Coke bottles. It's as if we're going to use "your" money! You don't even have a freaking job so why on earth would you care if we buy what ever we want to buy! But that's not the point. The point is there are some things that shouldn't be re-used and should just be thrown. If you re-use those plastic bottles, you pose yourself for esophageal cancer because as time passes, plastic molecules are eroded and gets mixed in the water you drink and these molecules are carcinogens (caner causing substances).

Aah! I just hate it when he is so stubborn! What's the use of owning drinking glasses and other usable items when you insist of using trash! But I can't blame him for being like that for he did grow up from a poor family but how come my mom who also came from a poor family is able to have good taste? Answer? My mom is sophisticated and my dad is still socially incapable of adjusting to our lifestyle.

Brother Why Don't You Blog?!

My brother is so irritating! I wasted my time making him a blog and I did all the preliminary linking and submission to blog directories so that he'll just need to post his entries! I was the one who even made his first post because he's just too lazy!

I don't know why he's lazy or what keeps him busy. All I know is that he always goes out of the house to hang out with his high school drop out friends. He wins the black sheep of the family award no doubt about it!

I sometimes wonder if he ever thinks of his future. My mom tells me that he's still young and needs more guidance. But young? Are you sure? For someone who can smoke and drink and someone who refuses to hear advice from his parents I don't think so that he's innocent or "young". He's old enough to be responsible for his actions! He's already going to be in the 11th grade and people of that age are already mature. Hell, I was only in grade 6 when I already started thinking of my future.

I sometimes think if he was bottle fed when he was still below one year old that is why he is intellectually and psychologically retarded. He had a choice to drink and smoke and do all those stupid things that he does, he should be sensible enough to get his act together before it's too late. I hope that I won't get a son like him in the future who is so irresponsible and darn selfish.

Do You Have A Girlfriend?

One question that really irritates me is "Do you have a girlfriend?". Why? Well it's just because why do you want to know if ever I have a girlfriend? Is it a requirement to have a girlfriend to be successful in my chosen career or finish college? Or does having a girlfriend make me a better person and most importantly, will having a girlfriend contribute to the betterment of mankind?

I don't think so.

It irritates me so much when I'm asked this because it degrades the idea and point of having a relationship. Having a relationship is not just for the sake of it. That is what most teens think that's why they look for a relationship just for the sake of having one because it is the norm or the "in" thing in college.

My ideals and principles dictates to me that a relationship is based on love. I don't have a girlfriend or any intimate relationship for that matter because I haven't found the one that I love, my other half, my equal. Love will come and you don't look for it. If you try looking for love then you would just find losers who are in desperate to have a relationship for very wrong reasons.

My idea of having a relationship is having a partner who you will love and who loves you and both of you would live your entire life together. I'm after a serious-marriage type of relationships not just flings or one night stands.

So if I wasn't in a good mood while that mother asked me if I had a girlfriend, I would have replied: "I don't have a girlfriend because I don't want to end up like your kids who ended up getting pregnant and married early without finishing college (such losers)!"

I'll Miss My Boiled Peanuts

One advantage of living far away from civilization is that you get to go on an hour travel time. And what do I do during these travel times? I either take a nap, listen to music, or I think... Yup I think of emo stuff to serious stuff to dirty stuff hahaha! I just have a lot of thoughts that surges into my mind when I'm not doing anything. And I was on a one way ride to daydream land I was thinking what I'll be missing in the Philippines when I move to Canada.

I was nibbling on my favorite bag of boiled peanuts when the thought hit me, I'll miss my boiled peanuts hehehe. I know that Canada will have peanuts but I'm not sure if they'll have my favorite fresh boiled peanuts. Maybe I'll start my peanut shop there and spread the addiction to peanuts, acne afflicted skin, and anaphylactic shock from allergies to peanuts hehehe. What an evil plan to destroy the world. But seriously, I'll miss Pinoy dishes but I don't think that I'll be missing it that much because my dad (yup he's our personal slave/cook/house boy/carpenter/plumber/driver/assistant/etc) will be with us.

I'll miss my friends, my school, and my way of life here in the Philippines. But I won't miss the sight of poverty, injustice, and plain ugliness that the Philippines has to offer for Filipino. Moving to Canada is a an escape from all these hardships that the common Filipino has. Well, we aren't poor so I haven't really experience real hardship but we're not rich either so I somehow have an idea of how a poor Filipino live.

I know for a fact that I'll be enjoying my new life and I sure can't wait to move.

On Moral Relativism

Today was very interesting indeed, aside from this day being the Graduation Day for my younger brother, I was able to learn some interesting stuff during the mass celebration's homily delivered by his excellency Monsenyor Pacana.

The topic was about moral relativism. So what is moral relativism anyway? Moral Relativism asserts that morality is not based on any absolute standard. Rather, ethical "truths" depend on the situation, culture, one's feelings, etc (from gotquestions.org). In other words, morality is overrated. There is no right and wrong. A good example is stealing. Moral relativism means that stealing is only wrong if you're caught!

But if you believe this then you should need to reevaluate yourself and your value system. There is no 11th Commandment! The 11th commandment by the way is you can do whatever you want to do as long as you're not caught. A sick joke perhaps but is absolutely untrue.

We all know how to differentiate right from wrong. We have known this since we were little and society upholds these mores or socially accepted norms as our basis of our morality. Because if we disregard morality then we would have a deteriorated society right now. But wait, our society has already start to deteriorate... but this is why we should make a stand to correct this problem before it worsens.

This is why we should uphold our morals and values. It is sad that there are a lot of people out there who know embrace the sad ideology of moral relativism but we should not break and follow this fad. Just because everyone is being immoral doesn't mean that we have to follow them.

We should always put this in mind: We should ALWAYS be morally upright even if others CANNOT, if others WILL NOT, and if others ARE NOT.

Let's Place the World In Complete Darkness

Yup! You heard me right! Please support the international movement, Earth Hour (an event created by the World Wildlife Fund.), to help reduce the impact of global warming to our climate. On March 29, 2008 at 8 p.m., join millions of people around the world in making a statement about climate change by turning off your lights. By doing so, you'll be creating a brighter future for you and your children.


It may only be for a few minutes but if the rest of the world joins in then we could really make a difference? Why? Just watch the video below to learn more about Earth Hour.

If you really want to take a step further then make Earth Hour and everyday event by simply switching of unused electrical appliances and lights. You don't only save money but you also help save the world in the process. What a great deal don't you think?

And if you want to be a real hero, then please join me in raising funds for Earth Hour. Please visit The Grim Angel Earth Hero Page.

My Thoughts on Hateful Bastards

In this life there are some basic truths and one basic truth that I have learned is that you can never please everyone. You are not born in this world to make everyone happy, that is not your job. Pleasing everyone is not your destiny. For me, one's destiny is to live out one's life to the fullest, doing what you can to make a change, to be different. One should do as one pleases (as long as you don't hurt anyone in the process) and one's actions cannot be dictated upon by others.

So why am I talking about pleasing everyone and stuff? Well it's just that the world is full of hateful bastards who don't have anything productive to do but flame and hate. What's worst about these people is that they love being anonymous. They don't have a face and a name so you can't run after them and kill them or whatever retaliation you want to do.

But in this life there is another thing that I have learned that is consoling. You don't have to do anything to get back or to get even with these people. I won't waste my time and effort to get even by getting into a flaming battle or into a dog fight. I won't stoop as low as to lower myself to their level, I know my worth and I am more than that. These people, the unknown haters, are cowards. They are insecure and they don't have the confidence to show their faces and real identity. We all know these kind of people. They are the kind of people who goes online (especially on youtube) and they just flame you even if they don't know you. They are all talk but at the end of the day they are nothing, they are just insecure. These kind of people are those who have low self-esteem and are usually abused (sexually/verbally) as children or deprived of love and respect.

I have received several insults on my blog and they are always from anonymous pathetic spineless wimps who are unequipped to live as normal self-respecting human beings (ok, I'm getting a bit offensive). Just for the record, this blog is a PERSONAL BLOG. It is about my life and everything that I am. This blog is an extension of my thoughts and my feelings, in short it's part of me and my soul. So if you don't want to view my blog then don't visit it! Don't continue reading my posts and just leave. If you're not able to leave respectful constructive criticisms then don't leave any traces at all.

Honestly, their spiteful words may hurt a while (because I'm a person with feelings after all) but a little later I pick myself up and I realize that I am very lucky. I'm lucky to be loved by people I care of and I don't have to hurt other people just to make myself feel good. I am not like these haters who goes to forums and blogs just to release their frustrations from their pathetic little lives (if they even have a life that is).

Oh my... I'm supposed to have a neutral post about this negativity but I am angry and I can't help it. But I'm not angry enough to face my limitations and accept who I am. Sure I know that I am not perfect. I know that I may not have the most beautiful body in the world or the looks that people will fall for but this is who I am. This is me, I accept me for who I am and I love myself. My family loves me for who I am and I don't care what other people think.

I won't let other people get in the way of my self-expression and creativity. So haters, send me all the hate messages in the world! Buy a hate-thesaurus if you want and hit me with all of your best negative and degrading words. Because after everything you say I'll only feel better at my self, because at least I'm being Christ-like because He is always with the ones that are persecuted. I am not a saint but I do not also hurt other people just to feel that I exist in this world.

So to my haters: Thank you for your comments. Have a good day and God bless!

Homeowners May Be Being Treated Unfairly

I have read an interesting article about commercial mortgages and I have to say that I was totally blown away! I am saddened by the fact that there are some money lending firms that treat homeowners unfairly according to the Financial Ombudsman.

Many people are struggling just to live a decent living and at the same time be able to pay their commercial mortgages and then we have money lending firms imposing several fees that are not any more reasonable.

For me, the homeowners should really complain about these excessive fees and that the Financial Ombudsman should protect these rights. Homeowners should protect their rights from money lenders that takes advantage of their situation.

Good thing that there still are great lending firms that offers commercial mortgages at very reasonable prices. We're going to move to another place this coming May and this thought is very reassuring.

Filipino CEO Sex Scandal

It's quite amazing how this keywords could attract so many readers. Like I've read in some blog that the words sex scandal could really attract people to your blog or website. If you did open this blog because of the said keywords then the statistics must be true. What is it with human beings and they find something controversial very interesting and amusing. Maybe human beings are just finding ways to spice up their lives with things that are out of the ordinary like sex scandals. If people had enough time and their own private place, camera, and girlfriends/boyfriends then I guess we would have an abundant supply of sex scandals because people would do the things that are forbidden to fulfill one's curiousity and to stir up one's boring routines that we call life. I think that all of us have thought of doing something wrong just to see what happens. Imagine slapping your teacher. Isn't it interesting to find out their reactions? Maybe we provoke to feel that we truly exist. I don't know with others but this is just my idea why people do stupid things.

I’m Sorry That You’re Impoverished

I just hate some of my brother’s friends, if not completely all of them. I can’t fake it and act happy whenever they’re around the house and be hospitable and all because they define the epitome of “buwiysetas” or unwanted visitors. Like they have the nerve of saying this line: “I never thought that HE (referring to ME) would be here…” Like the HELL! I happen to live here you stupid b*tches. This happens to be my freaking home, this is my domain, my sanctuary, my abode, residence, and whatever you call a place you own and live in. Grrr! I hate them! If only I have the time and energy to throw them out of the house!

Some of them have the audacity to come to our house in the evening to use our computer. And for what? For checking their Friendster accounts and even for scanning their pictures of their hideous selves. Like don’t they have the decency to call ahead (that is if they have a phone, or send an SMS at least) or wait until morning to do their stupidness? My gosh, I don’t want to be rude like they are but don’t they have money to spend on internet cafes? Like do they understand the word PRIVATE or PRIVACY? My HOME is not a PUBLIC place where they can casually enter in the middle of the night! I don’t care if they can’t afford to buy their own PC or connect to the internet, or worst, can’t afford to rent a computer in an internet café. Don't get me wrong. I don't look down on them because they can't afford to buy a PC or connect to the internet, what I'm really against is that they have the nerve to go to our house acting as if they own it. How dare they impose themselves and barge in our house without any courtesy call?! How rude and undignified. But what would you expect from people of poor breeding.

I know that it’s Christmas and all but lately I have noticed that they have a negative influence with my brother and that triggers my hate mode. These bunch of delinquents lie to their parents about where they are going and they don’t even inform their parents that they’re not coming home. These are the group of youth that I can tag as a problem of society. Hell, my brother was even caught carrying marijuana (Cannabis) and who else would we blame but his stupid misfit friends. They have the foul excuse of having these prayer meetings during Sunday just to idle somewhere.

Cactus Hug

Poor cactus... I can totally feel his pain...

Being Hot-tempered Is So Uncool

Hmm… I wonder why people are so hot tempered these days? Hmm… This has totally been an eye-opener to me. In all the people who easily get mad and then would vent out their frustrations by saying awful things to someone, I see myself. I wonder why I just realized this now? I wonder why I am so thick headed that I would make hasty decisions like never ever speaking to a person that hurt me. Of course, it is an escape mechanism from being hurt but damn, I really should polish my conflict resolution skills.

I have been a very angry person, yes I have to admit this. I am so angry that I only bring pain and hurt into my life… buhuhu… well being angry sometimes is quite good to inform everyone that I am not to be messed with!

But really, being angry is not a good thing. It might lead to cardiovascular diseases and it is a big cause of stress, something that I have too much because of my chosen future career. And being angry clouds your ability to think rationally, plus for the fact that it gets you nowhere but more hurt and bigger conflicts.

So people, why not try to be more happy right? Smile and get a life… er… I mean have a happy life… if you know what I mean. Yes! I choose to be happy. And that means getting rid of stress factors… but doesn’t that mean saying good-bye to certain people? Hmm… Well, avoiding is one way to prevent any more conflicts, although you don’t really solve anything. But I am a happy person and I don’t intend to hold grudges. If people wants to reconcile then the better…

So… from now on… I decide to be happy… no more grudges… no more hating… and no more judging a person.

Hmm… let’s just see where life will lead me now… onwards with my life…

I am happy. I am at peace… and oh yes, I love myself.

I don't read forwarded chain messages... why?

I don't read forwarded chain messages... why?

1. It's either spam
2. There's a curse or bad luck thing...
3. It's so impersonal
4. It's either plain stupid or too good to be true...

I'm sorry if I offend people who loves forwarding messages but please, try to reconsider your actions. You really want your friend to die? As in really... I have been deleting, ignoring, and practically ending the chain of nonesense! And I'm still alive and bad luck hasn't come to me... no, Samara didn't steal my soul, and my family are ok.

Please stop forwarding hurtful trash. Thank you. Peace!

How is you?

"Hay ebryone, how is you?"

Everytime we hear someone who speaks bamboo-English (bad Englsih) we can't help but laugh... But I don't find anything to laugh about with this fact. The fact is Filipinos are known for their bad English and illeteracy... we have the so called "masa" or the masses (poor people) who aren't educated that contributes to the high illiteracy rate and not to mention the poverty count.

I can excuse the people who haven't attended school but college students?!!! I once chatted online with someone from Cagayan de Oro who studies in one of the colleges here (he's not from Xavier University... thank goodness!) and God! He sure is dumb!

I'm sorry but I can't just help it. He has no excuse to have that bad grammar! Sure being able to speak good English will not help him become richer but at least it would give him pride that he's educated and is smart (linguistic IQ)!

This either states that the Philippine's education system is down the drain or today's youth posses low IQ and not to mention EQ.

Abused Customer Service Agent

http://www.zshare.net/audio/pldt-complaint-wav.html

The link above will lead youto a taped conversation of a PLDT DSL subscriber and a PLDT Customer Service Agent. The customer is very hot headed and is putting all his frustration on the poor customer service agent. The customer service agent has just got enough of him and turned her microphone to mute and cursed at him.... well so she thought... because the very hot headed customer heard her curse and so he became very violent and made the poor customer agent day a living hell.

The agent just broke down crying...

In my opinion, the customer has all the right to be frustrated but he should also consider that the agent had nothing to do with the failure of the company. She just receives complaints and tries to convey this complaints to the department that would look to this. The customer has no right to attack these poor innocent customer agents because they already have a lot of inconsiderate people to talk to every day and they are just adding insult to injury.

The mental health of these workers are in critical condition. They constantly face anger, hate, pain, hurt, and a lot of verbal abuse from customers who fail to notice that these agents are also people with feelings. Sure, they're paid to receive all of the customer's complaints but the customers should know the limit as not to attack the agents.

The call centers may be one of the stressful jobs in the world. They constantly face apathy and dehumanization. How can you expect them to face another caller and greet them "good"morning when they just went through hell with a past arrogant caller?

We should be more sensitive of others feelings... this is what we should learn...

On Homosexuality and Bisexuality...

I onced asked someone if he knew that it was a sin to have homosexual relations with another man. It has been frequently taught in my Religious Studies classes and church that homosexuality and even the now very common bisexual guys are big sinners. They say that it is unnatural and simply wrong.

Going back to the guy who I asked the do you think that you will go to hell question, I was deeply disturbed and even confused with what he said. He told me that it wasn't wrong to love so it wasn't a sin.

I was quite made aghast, yes, but he did quite have a point. The thing is that that kind of love is pointless. Why can't the homosexuals and bisexuals admit that they are only after easy sex that is why they engage in these deluded acts.

Homosexuals are incapable of loving and so I said... But according to a psychology study this statement is a big fallacy. Does that mean that homosexuals can love someone of the same sex?

This is quite a controversial topic. Why am I even talking about it? Hmm...

Sex Sells

It really is funny how people are so attracted to the topic about sex... but what is in sex that is so likable? Before you get me wrong this topic is PG-rated as well as this blog but let us tackle this very strange controversy.

I have noticed that in every form of advertisement there is always a tinge of sex, if not, all out sexual message is seen. Pervertive acts, words, and even thoughts are already made normal in this era and it is quite alarming.

What ever happened to true love? What happened to purity? I blame the media for this. The media is what sets trends, the what's good and whats bad; the what's hot and what's not. But I also think that the people who follow these trends are stupid. Why do they have to be such stereotypes?!

I can excuse the stupid teens for being so stupid and horny but even some adults are not to be excused from this excessive lust. Whatever happened to the saying that the adults are suppose to set an example?

I think that money and sex are the roots of all evil. These are the structural sins of society... I just hope that we put an end to this soon and reclaim our souls...

I don't want to sound like a righteous Christian but really... I don't think that I am all good... I am also a sinner... I just realized my mistakes.