PayPal Dilemma

Awe what a sad day this has turned out to be. SponsoredReviews told me that they had sent me $27.95 to my PayPal account but guess what? No payment was received. So I checked my PayPal e-mail that I have stated on my account at SponsoredReviews and my PayPal Address had an additional letter! What? I then panicked and e-mailed that address only to find that the address was not registered to anyone. So I decided to claim that e-mail address and add that e-mail to my PayPal account hoping that my payment would be forwarder to my account but I still don't see any money coming in.

Sure $27.95 may not be that big but it's still money and that could cover one year subscription payment for my new domain. Oh well I have already contacted PayPal and SponsoredReviews about this matter and hope it gets resolved soon.

But one question that bothers me is how in the world did my PayPal e-mail change? I thought I was hacked or something. Guess I have to change my passwords again. If ever I don't get to retrieve that $27.95, well I just have to live with that fact and move on with my life.

As they say, bad things are always replaced with good and vice versa. This balance in life thing is sure is hard to understand.

Being A Teacher Is Hard

Boy, I have said this before but I'll say it again, being a teacher is so freaking hard! I wanted to be a teacher before but now that I'm experiencing one role of a teacher I'm having second thoughts. Yup I did plan on becoming a clinical instructor (CI) some day but I'm having second thoughts right now.

No I do not have a part time as a teacher at some university (because I'm not qualified, Lol). I'm helping my mom with her checking of papers because she's a part-time professor at a local university teaching basic accounting. And checking accounting test papers is so tiring! I hve to check each entry one by one to check if they got the total correctly and that it didn't appear on it's own. I still have 3 days to check them and I guess I'll divide my work on those days to preserve my sanity.

I hate doing so many things at a time. I used to multi-task but I realized that it's best to focus on one activity so that you'll finish more than end up with many unfinished projects/activities. I have my blogging, my new domain to finish, my checking, and guess I have to eat in between too. Wished a day had longer hours so that I could get more finished.

I Want To Protect My Home

Just last night I heard a gang war going on outside my house. It was around 2 am when I heard teenagers screaming and throwing stones at each other. It was an awful experience and what made it worst was that some stones were falling on our roof too...

My God. Why on earth did my father buy a house & lot in this neighborhood? Because it's cheap? Well it has good reasons why it's cheap, it's located in a bad neighborhood. I'm constantly am awakened at night fearing that one of those gang members will break in and steal something. And where there are gangs, vandalism is something very common.

What I need right now is a homeowner's insurance. I want to feel safe all the time even when I'm out of the house. I want to be assured that even if I return to my house that has burned down to the ground or vandalized by some stupid gang.

Also if I want to move out from this bad neighborhood I would need a homeowner's insurance to be able to get a mortgage loan so that I could have that dream house for me and my family in a safe and peaceful neighborhood.

Choose Your Friends Carefully

I don't know what some Filipino teenagers are thinking right now and they choose to take a path to self-destruction?! A good example? My stupid brother! He was already almost expelled for illegal possession of Marijuana and now he has entered himself into another mess and I am really frustrated about it. He has joined a "Filipino Gang" called the Bloods. If you're not familiar with this stupidity (that Filipinos are so trying hard to imitate) then let me explain what Bloods is. Bloods is a gang that has a rival gang called the Crips (the Bloods and Crips are mostly composed of Black Americans by the way). The Bloods wear red bandannas on their faces while the Crips wears blue. They have nothing better to do aside from fighting with each other late at night (or early at dawn) throwing stones at each other and disturbing the community's peace.

My brother was even very proud to say that his "gang" is established world wide, which of course is true and another fact would be that these gangs are involved in murders, robberies, drug dealing, among many other criminal pursuits. And the stupid Filipinos (here and abroad) want to imitate these gangs as their idols thinking it's cool. No wonder I received this comment about Filipinos, and I have to say I am ashamed. I am ashamed that some Filipinos are stupid enough to join the Bloods and Crips. Instead of trying to establish their lives in the US or any other part of the world as respected immigrants they want to stand out in their community as juvenile delinquents!

I wouldn't care less if they want to ruin their lives but they had to drag my stupid brother into their none sense! Every day they come to our house looking for my idiot of a brother to join them in what ever gang activity they do (riots, drug usage, and other criminal acts as vandalizing) and who again has to cover for my stupid brother? My mom. What is my brother's problem that he really wants to ruin his life? But actually I don't give a damn if he dies in his gang riots because I'm sick and tired of trying to tell him that what he's going into is wrong. My mom tried her best and even thought of sending him away somewhere far from his stupid gang but my brother told my mom, "What do you care, it's my life!" You moron! As long as you're under the roof of our parents at least have some decency as not to drag our family down with you!

I give up. He's not my child so what do I care. Let my parents handle their son's mess, it's actually their fault for always giving in to his demands and other stupidity. The videos below kind of summarizes what my brother is in to right now. He and some other mislead Filipino youths are going to be great liabilities. The government should do something before anyone gets killed.

For your information: Crips use the symbol BK which means "Blood Killas" while the Bloods use the symbol CK as "Crips Killer"... stupidity I tell you, killing each other for very low reasons...

PR 0?! What the?

Ok my blog was never a PR 4 but it was a PR 1 and I'm so proud of that because I worked hard for that but all of the sudden my PR became 0 when it was a PR 1 last night. I am now wondering what I did to deserve such a drop in PR.

This is really so depressing... I don't want to live anymore! Hahaha that's a bit too much. The hell with PR! I blog because I want to and not for some rating (char). But still... ouch!

But honestly I don't think that I've done anything wrong. I even removed my Adbrite Ads since I thought that it made my Adsense earnings drop but ok enough with that.

On with my life... even if I have a PR 0 blog... huhuhu...

Archbishop Oscar Cruz: A Public Sinner

Lingayen-Dagupan Archbishop Oscar Cruz said ‘public sinners’ should not be given the Holy Sacrament of Communion including, he said, President Arroyo. ‘I would not give communion to somebody receiving communion in public whom I know is a public sinner.’ Because to do so would be ‘like throwing the body and blood of Christ into the garbage.' from abs-cbnnews.com

What an awful thing to say for a person whose life is supposed to be devoted to God. What gives him the right to condemn and crucify any person (sinner or not) denying them the body and blood of Christ? If I remember the Lord's words when he was asked why he eats with known social sinners as tax collectors and this is what Jesus Christ has answered:

Those who are well have no need for a physician, but those who are sick. I came not to call the righteous but sinners. (Mark 2:15-17)

Jesus calls for us to love our fellow men but Oscar Cruz calls us to choose a stone and throw it at our President Gloria Macapagal-Arroyo. It is quite unfair that he released such statements in public. We must remember that he is just a man. He has no right to judge who are the sinners because he himself is a sinner.

In fact he is a public sinner himself. He is a liar! A public liar and he had absolutely no shame and lied. Oscar Cruz said that the media misquoted him and had taken his statement out of context that he had never said that he will refuse communion to President GMA and her family but the video recordings of his statements are very clear and are attacks directly made to the president. Video camera recordings don't lie, people do.

Quezon Rep. Danilo Suarez, along with 27 other congressmen, have urged the Catholic Bishops' Conference of the Philippines to impose sanctions on Cruz for his statements regarding the President. And if the CBC do not take actions in giving sanctions to Oscar Cruz for conduct unbecoming of an archbishop, congress is willing to take the issue to Vatican.

We have heard of so many rotten priests in the world who are guilty of rape, child molestation, and yes even corruption. Let us all Catholics unite to stop these people from abusing the holy power that was entrusted to them. These are the priests that tarnish the name of the Church and all that is holy.

Mr. Oscar Cruz for lying and being a public sinner why don't you abstain from taking the body and blood of Christ? Better yet condemn yourself like what you do to other people you tag as sinners.

The church is supposed to be an advocate of peace and love. Not hate...

You Don't Like Me? No Problem!

My friend Ellen has a younger brother who transferred to our university last year. I know that it might be difficult for him to transfer and all because he might not have friends and all. So every time he joins his sister for lunch or when they meet up at the library I had always tried my best to be nice at him (smiling and all).

But what a huge slap it is to me when his sister told me that he didn't like me and all... I forgot what Ellen and I were talking about when she brought that topic up. Of course I was quite offended with the statement and I replied, "Good! I never liked him the first time I laid eyes on him too!"

I was so infuriated! Like from all of the good deeds I've done from lending him my clothes when he needed it and being nice (which I normally don't do to strangers) he has the guts to hate me? Yeah not liking someone is the same as hate as I realized that he didn't want to be around me whenever he and his sis meets up. Like whatever dude! I was not placed in this world to please you.

Just recently I came to his home because me and my friends slept over at Ellen's house and of course he would be there because he lived there. I did my best to ignore him and I did a great job too. Ellen told him that he and I should be friends now and guess what he said? "Edgar and I are already friends..." yeah right in your dreams! I wonder when we did become friends.

I gave him my hand of friendship and I gave effort to get to know him (from sending Friendster messages and accepting his request to burn him some songs) and he just pushed my hand away. It's his lost not mine. But why am I blabbering about him anyway?

Maybe it's to share to everyone that don't be affected if anyone rejects you whenever you extend your friendship. You're not the one with the issues, they are!

My Dad a True Filipino

Filipinos have been known for being resourceful and innovative. Since the Philippines is a third world country, Filipinos have limited resources in terms of money and raw materials, that is why Filipinos would have to make do with whatever they have to be able to create or use something.

My Dad is a true Filipino then if being resourceful is a common trait with Filipinos. But I guess my dad has gone overboard with being resourceful because he is being more of a trash collector than a resourceful person and I mean it! Our house is full of trash because of him and our house looks like a slum house!

Our house is small but it wouldn't look so cheap if my dad didn't think of hanging those heart-shaped Ferrero Rocher chocolates as decorations. He thinks that it's classy to display expensive food wrappers to "show off", he doesn't even realize that he's just making a fool of himself in the process.

And another thing, we have glasses that he stores that we haven't even used but he decided to re-use those coffee glass containers. He really is so infuriating! He also refuses to buy a water glass pitcher because he insists that this is a waste of money because we could just re-use those 2 Liter Coke bottles. It's as if we're going to use "your" money! You don't even have a freaking job so why on earth would you care if we buy what ever we want to buy! But that's not the point. The point is there are some things that shouldn't be re-used and should just be thrown. If you re-use those plastic bottles, you pose yourself for esophageal cancer because as time passes, plastic molecules are eroded and gets mixed in the water you drink and these molecules are carcinogens (caner causing substances).

Aah! I just hate it when he is so stubborn! What's the use of owning drinking glasses and other usable items when you insist of using trash! But I can't blame him for being like that for he did grow up from a poor family but how come my mom who also came from a poor family is able to have good taste? Answer? My mom is sophisticated and my dad is still socially incapable of adjusting to our lifestyle.

Brother Why Don't You Blog?!

My brother is so irritating! I wasted my time making him a blog and I did all the preliminary linking and submission to blog directories so that he'll just need to post his entries! I was the one who even made his first post because he's just too lazy!

I don't know why he's lazy or what keeps him busy. All I know is that he always goes out of the house to hang out with his high school drop out friends. He wins the black sheep of the family award no doubt about it!

I sometimes wonder if he ever thinks of his future. My mom tells me that he's still young and needs more guidance. But young? Are you sure? For someone who can smoke and drink and someone who refuses to hear advice from his parents I don't think so that he's innocent or "young". He's old enough to be responsible for his actions! He's already going to be in the 11th grade and people of that age are already mature. Hell, I was only in grade 6 when I already started thinking of my future.

I sometimes think if he was bottle fed when he was still below one year old that is why he is intellectually and psychologically retarded. He had a choice to drink and smoke and do all those stupid things that he does, he should be sensible enough to get his act together before it's too late. I hope that I won't get a son like him in the future who is so irresponsible and darn selfish.

Anyone Have Spare Hands?

Boy my hands sure do hurt from all the hard work that I have done lately! I think that I might be having arthritis in my knuckle areas. I wonder if this is a result of all the years that I have made my knuckles make those cracking sounds. You know, the sounds that is created when you crack your knuckles? Boy it sure is hard to explain but you do understand that my knuckles hurt right?

But unfortunately my suffering don't end today. I still have a whole month to sort out my topsy-turvy house but then I'm having some visitors over this Friday so I have to finish cleaning and arranging our things by tomorrow. Oh well, I better sleep early today so that I could start working early tomorrow.

So What If Your House Is Bigger!

I was quite offended when a pineapple picker (that's her job) came to our house to check out the stuff that we're selling (garage sale) when she asked how come we have such a small house when my mom who had a high ranking position in Del Monte Philippines Inc. And she added, I'm just a Pineapple picker from the field and my house looks way better.

I was ready to be in battle mode and kill this ****! How dare she and she says that in our own home. Good thing my dad was there and threw our income statement to her face (figuratively of course) and showed her that we earn more than her freaking children who support her and that the only reason why we did not invest in the Philippines because my mom had planned to live in Canada a long time ago.

Why invest in a country that you would sooner leave right? The nerve of that woman trying to imply that she is well off and that we are cheap. 10 years from now I'm sure to come back her in the Philippines and I'll show her who's cheap!

But as my mom said, there's no need to prove anything. Awe, my mom is so kind and pro-peace. I hate it! hehehe. :) But that's right, so what if she's a pineapple picker who get to have a house larger than ours. That doesn't mean that we have to be ashamed. We're moving to Canada so what the hell do we care about our present home?

Do You Have A Girlfriend?

One question that really irritates me is "Do you have a girlfriend?". Why? Well it's just because why do you want to know if ever I have a girlfriend? Is it a requirement to have a girlfriend to be successful in my chosen career or finish college? Or does having a girlfriend make me a better person and most importantly, will having a girlfriend contribute to the betterment of mankind?

I don't think so.

It irritates me so much when I'm asked this because it degrades the idea and point of having a relationship. Having a relationship is not just for the sake of it. That is what most teens think that's why they look for a relationship just for the sake of having one because it is the norm or the "in" thing in college.

My ideals and principles dictates to me that a relationship is based on love. I don't have a girlfriend or any intimate relationship for that matter because I haven't found the one that I love, my other half, my equal. Love will come and you don't look for it. If you try looking for love then you would just find losers who are in desperate to have a relationship for very wrong reasons.

My idea of having a relationship is having a partner who you will love and who loves you and both of you would live your entire life together. I'm after a serious-marriage type of relationships not just flings or one night stands.

So if I wasn't in a good mood while that mother asked me if I had a girlfriend, I would have replied: "I don't have a girlfriend because I don't want to end up like your kids who ended up getting pregnant and married early without finishing college (such losers)!"

Me, the Assistant Professor

Who would have guessed that being a teacher could be so darn difficult. I had a first hand experience of how tiring it is a professor when my mom asked me to help her check her test papers and my God my brain almost fried. If you think that checking test papers is just simple, well you should try checking bookkeeping test papers!

I had to check every entry to check if the students did not just copy their total. And it's quite frustrating how many of them copied and how many of them who had no clue what they are doing. If I was a teacher then I'd have no double thoughts and I will report them for cheating and fail them.

But my mom is too kind with them and told me that she'll just pass them. My mom is just teaching as a part-time job by the way since it's a great way to earn money plus she'll be able to make use of her Masters degree.

I still am not finished and I'm just resting for a bit. I think that I may need to get some glasses already since my eyes are starting to hurt already from all those bloody entries.

Too Tired to Blog

I don't know why I suddenly feel so tired today. I was planning to do my daily routine this evening, blog and drop Entrecards but I am just too darn tired to stay awake. I guess that my body is already feeling the recoil of sleep deficit. I have to pay up for my lost hours of sleep.

It's really amazing how I manage to sleep late at night during days with out classes and be flat on bed snoring during school days hehehe. But maybe it is just more relaxing to sleep when you know that you have a lot of boring school stuff to do.

Speaking of school stuff it reminds me of my brother's high school, Holy Cross High School. I have never studied there and I am glad that I did not because their rules and policy are so insanely stupid. Why do they need to have the parents retrieve the student's report card? Am I not enough to satisfy the role as guardian? Like my parents have no time because they have to work for our living. Besides my brother already graduated so there is no need to talk to the parents about my brother's performance in school.

I just wonder what the basis of their rules are. Just for the sake of having rules? Well I have 2 words for that: BS! Sorry for my French.

Being Businessminded

I don't know what aches more, my legs from my morning workout nightmare or my arms from cleaning my mom's boxes fully loaded with her shoes! What is it with women and shoes? Anyway I'm opt to the challenge of cleaning her shoes as I'm excited to sell them for our garage sale. But that's not the main topic of my post today, my main topic is about selling your items to the highest bidder.

Ok you might be wondering why my posts are all about moving and selling stuff, well I'm sorry but that is all that occupies my mind right now. So back to the topic, isn't it normal for you to sell your items to the highest bidder? Some of our neighbors are dismayed at us because we sold our items that they liked to other higher bidders, But the point of selling your stuff is to earn money right so they should understand that a business operates to earn income and not to lose money in the long run. What's wrong with some of our neighbors is that we already have a price for our items at very reasonable prices but they still want to bargain and make the prices lower to the point that their prices are just unfair and insane.

For example, we're selling our bedroom refrigerator for Php 3000 which is still new and we bought it for Php 9000 originally. They still want to lower that to Php 2500 and they are the ones that fixes the price. A sort of take it or leave it attitude. But the point is we won't be cheated because we know that there are other higher bidders. It so happened that another bidder wanted to buy the said refrigerator for Php 4000. What a swell price! So naturally our refrigerator went to the highest bidder. But now we're faced with a neighbor who's dismayed for selling the item that she really wanted. But if she really wanted it then she should have just agreed to buy it at a reasonable price. I know that friendship is important, but we have to consider that we are selling items to earn money for our expenses for our new life at Canada. We still have to buy furnitures and appliances and we also have to pay for our living right? So it's only fair that we sell our items for a right price.

I'm sorry neighbors but we will leave your very cheap price and take a more reasonable price by better buyers.

My House = My Mall

You might be wondering what I'm ranting about this time. Well I'm not actually ranting, I'm just expressing my views and describing what a total mess my house is today. There are boxes everywhere and everything is at disarray. It's crazy! It's like Hurricane Kathrina has passed and did some serious damage to our house. Well what do you expect to see in a house that is owned by people who are about to leave. It's only natural to find my house in such a mess since we are preparing to leave and stuff. This is a good way to rationalize and explain to all the people that goes to our house.

Talking about people that goes to our house, I can't count how many people has come and gone. I feel like I'm in a mall or a boutique because any time of the day (and even night) people come in to check and see what we're selling and all. It's quite funny how people try to bargain with us but we know our stuff so we know how much we should sell it. It doesn't mean that just because we need to sell our things that we will sell it for a very low price. The price should be reasonable on both parties, the buyers and us, the sellers.

I even feel a bit of tension as some buyers try to out-bid themselves. Some people get dismayed with us as we will definitely sell the item to the highest bidder. What do you expect? Anyone would sell their stuff at a higher price right The common misconception of people is that we should sell our stuff at a lower price because we're friends and that we're already rich as we are already going abroad. But the truth is, even if we already have sufficient money, we can't say it's enough because we're starting a new life and we will begin with nothing. So the bottom line is, "Our stuff goes to the highest bidder!"

I can't wait for our upcoming garage sale. Boy am I going to make a lot of money hehehe. Better place my salesman face hahaha!

Fifty-Six Cents... Oh boy... Seriously?

You might be wondering what I'm blabbering about this Fift-Six cents thing. Well let;s just say that this day is so tiring and depressing. Here's the story. I went down to the city (literally since I live in the beautiful mountain province of Bukidnon) to get my transcript of records from Xavier University High School, which is also located on another mountain... why am I obsess with mountains? Anyway my mom gave me Php 150 for my fare and food and I was like what? You're only giving me this amount? How am I going to get home (the fare going to our house is Php 45 by the way)? She told me that we'll just go home together since she already gave the rest of her money to my little brother who went to the beach with friends. At first I was mumbling why is his allowance for the day bigger than mine but I decided not to make a big fuss about it to prevent any problems.

So I went down to the city and decided to take a taxi up the second mountain because it was already 10:30 and business hours today are only up to 12 noon and I still had to go to the main campus to take care of my other transcript of records in college. I was thinking that the fare for the taxi would only cost around Php 60. But to my great dismay and surprise I had to pay Php 75. I would try to make a run for it but not only is that plain evil I couldn't run fast enough because I was carrying with me a laptop and the taxi driver has... well his car.
But if you think that my misery and impoverished state was worst enough I had to pay another Php 30 for the transcript of records processing fee. So to sum up all my fare to go down the city and up another mountain and subtract that from the money I had, I will get the great total of Php 16. Oh my God, I'm so pathetic.

But my misery does not end there. Well I took the jeepney this time since I had no choice, I was broke, and I paid Php 6 for the fare. I then proceeded to our College of Nursing to get my recommendation letter which happened to be not there. Well, I'm not really complaining since there is still a lot of time and I understand that they should prioritize the job application recommendations of past graduates (our 98% PRC Nursing Board Exam Passers). Oh well, I still do have to apply for the release of my transcript of records so no big deal, I'll just return this Monday.

And so this part explains why my post title is Fifty-Six Cents. I went to the finance office to have my clearance card checked and signed when the lady at the registrar printed out an account statement. I new that meant that we still had unfinished financial obligations which seems unrealistic to me because we have already settled all of this before my final exam. How on earth would I take the final exam if I haven't paid my tuition completely right? As I read the statement I was taken back... Running balance: Php 0.56. As in for real? Seriously? Fifty-six cents! They want me to pay Fifty-six cents! Of course I really did not worry about paying Php 0.56 but my point is my school sure does think of money as very important as they still had bothered to hold my records because of an unpaid Php 0.56.

Well I paid up what I lacked and smiled when I was given Php 0.30 cents for my Php 1.00 that I gave. An evil thought came into my mind: what if I demand that I be given the "EXACT" change as it seems that cents these days are very important to them. But of course I didn't do that because the lady was very nice and helpful to me. So in return to her kindness and respect, I shown her kindness and respect.

But my encounter with the bookcenter is the main even why my day is so shitty today. Imagine, there were 6-8 people inside that pathetic useless office and no one even bothered to approach me at the window. I understand that it's still office hours and costumers are always important. But these stupid so-called "Student Assistants" are of no assistance at all. I was very calm and kind when I said, "Excuse me" but they just went on with their lives talking. Finally there was this girl who went to the window to get some paper or something and I asked her where I could have this clearance slip signed. She said Window 5 (without even looking at me the whole time). I peeked at window 5 and it was closed. So I went back to her and informed her that there was no one at Window 5. And my very angry self suddenly blurted what I wanted to suppress: "Mga Bastos!" Translation: You people are so Rude! And it was true. They seem to have all the time doing nothing and they don't even entertain students very well. Well then, you should just close down if you don't want to do any service for the students. Seriously, I never buy things from them because aside from their snail-like movement there goods and books are crappy.

And so that ends my miserable story. I'm hanging out at the bridge of the Aggies Building because it's the only part of the school that I could get a WiFi connection since the library is closed. I'm hungry and I am so bored! Good thing I decided to bring my laptop, I would have died from boredom and hunger pangs if I didn't.

Bottom line, despite some shitty office and services that Xavier University has, I still love Xavier and am proud if it. It just have to remove some unworthy people from their jobs.

My Thoughts on Hateful Bastards

In this life there are some basic truths and one basic truth that I have learned is that you can never please everyone. You are not born in this world to make everyone happy, that is not your job. Pleasing everyone is not your destiny. For me, one's destiny is to live out one's life to the fullest, doing what you can to make a change, to be different. One should do as one pleases (as long as you don't hurt anyone in the process) and one's actions cannot be dictated upon by others.

So why am I talking about pleasing everyone and stuff? Well it's just that the world is full of hateful bastards who don't have anything productive to do but flame and hate. What's worst about these people is that they love being anonymous. They don't have a face and a name so you can't run after them and kill them or whatever retaliation you want to do.

But in this life there is another thing that I have learned that is consoling. You don't have to do anything to get back or to get even with these people. I won't waste my time and effort to get even by getting into a flaming battle or into a dog fight. I won't stoop as low as to lower myself to their level, I know my worth and I am more than that. These people, the unknown haters, are cowards. They are insecure and they don't have the confidence to show their faces and real identity. We all know these kind of people. They are the kind of people who goes online (especially on youtube) and they just flame you even if they don't know you. They are all talk but at the end of the day they are nothing, they are just insecure. These kind of people are those who have low self-esteem and are usually abused (sexually/verbally) as children or deprived of love and respect.

I have received several insults on my blog and they are always from anonymous pathetic spineless wimps who are unequipped to live as normal self-respecting human beings (ok, I'm getting a bit offensive). Just for the record, this blog is a PERSONAL BLOG. It is about my life and everything that I am. This blog is an extension of my thoughts and my feelings, in short it's part of me and my soul. So if you don't want to view my blog then don't visit it! Don't continue reading my posts and just leave. If you're not able to leave respectful constructive criticisms then don't leave any traces at all.

Honestly, their spiteful words may hurt a while (because I'm a person with feelings after all) but a little later I pick myself up and I realize that I am very lucky. I'm lucky to be loved by people I care of and I don't have to hurt other people just to make myself feel good. I am not like these haters who goes to forums and blogs just to release their frustrations from their pathetic little lives (if they even have a life that is).

Oh my... I'm supposed to have a neutral post about this negativity but I am angry and I can't help it. But I'm not angry enough to face my limitations and accept who I am. Sure I know that I am not perfect. I know that I may not have the most beautiful body in the world or the looks that people will fall for but this is who I am. This is me, I accept me for who I am and I love myself. My family loves me for who I am and I don't care what other people think.

I won't let other people get in the way of my self-expression and creativity. So haters, send me all the hate messages in the world! Buy a hate-thesaurus if you want and hit me with all of your best negative and degrading words. Because after everything you say I'll only feel better at my self, because at least I'm being Christ-like because He is always with the ones that are persecuted. I am not a saint but I do not also hurt other people just to feel that I exist in this world.

So to my haters: Thank you for your comments. Have a good day and God bless!

Welcome to the Dark Ages

Oh my God! I am totally pissed off! I was in the middle of replying to people’s messages to me when all of the sudden *poof*! A black-out… Aah!!! Today is supposed to be a Holy Thursday! People are in their house relaxing because it’s a holiday and then the freaking electricity goes out? This is the province in the Philippines for you, darn it.

I am really so frustrated and furious! We have so many black-outs here that our computers and appliances gets busted easily because the electricity goes on and off like crazy. I really hate this! Good thing my laptop’s battery is fully charged. At least I can still write about my thoughts… geez… talk about an addicted blogger…

But then my laptop's battery will only last for 1 and a half hours so what will I do then? No! What a boring day today will be. I'll just help my parents pack then. Beats doing nothing but stare at the ceiling hoping the electricity will come back.

Irresponsible!

Ok my photo above has completely no relevance to what I am about to talk about in this post. I just wanted to place this photo to emphasize the word irresponsibility!

So what about irresponsibility? According to Answers.com irresponsibility can be defined as the following:

1. Lack of, or freedom from, responsibility or accountability.
2. A trait causing one to act without a proper sense of responsibility; acting without giving proper weight to one's responsibilities.

My stupid brother may be the best example of this term... he may as well be a new definition of IRRESPONSIBILITY! Imagine this, you come home from school and you find your mother early from work working hard on the computer. At first you might think that it's work related but then you suddenly realized that it's actually your stupid brother's school work/project when your mother asks you to help out.

I was actually quite taken back by this scenario because never have I asked my parents to DO MY HOMEWORK/PROJECT! I may have asked for help but I rarely do this. And guess what makes the whole scenario more aggravating? The projects are due the next day. Oh yes projects! With an S! My mother was doing several projects of my stupid brother.

These projects were given months ago and yet my very stupid and irresponsible brother decided to do it at the last minute. To think that these projects are his requirements to graduate high school.

I sometimes ask myself why my brother is such a bum. A complete good for nothing student who can't seem to get his act together! He was almost suspended for possession of marijuana, got mixed up with juvenile delinquents, got into fist fights (and almost into a lawsuit), and he's a below average student.

Why? What happened to him and he seem so aloof, carefree, and lax?! Doesn't he ever think of is future? What makes him act this way? I can really say that he has no reason at all to be such a bad student! He lives near his school, he's always given allowance everyday (so he has no problems regarding budgeting and all), he has a computer, and my parents are always there to help him out.

So why then am I better at him in school performance?! Imagine I lived independently away from my parents since high school, had to cook my own food, budget my allowance, handle daily stresses on my own, and I didn't have complete resources like a computer. He has everything given to him but why is he so damn irresponsible?

I have one hypothesis why he's like this. He's a SPOILED BRAT! He's so used to being given everything he wanted and he takes no responsibility for his actions. For example, he flunks a subject. Is that a problem for him? Of course not because my parents come to the school and influences the teacher to pass him. He gets into trouble? No problem, my parents are once again to the rescue. He does something wrong? No problem because my parents lets it go. He never gets grounded or punished... so look how this spoiled person turned out. A selfish self-glorifying fool!

I'm quite pissed of because I once remembered asking my mom a definition of a word way back when I was little and she then told me to find it in the dictionary. Fine it's to train me to be responsible right? But what's ironic is right now she's doing my brother's dirty work. So what is she trying to teach my brother now? Dependence?

I know that someday, my parents will realize their mistakes when it's already too late, when my brother becomes a jobless bum with several kids.