On Love

I have heard of this very interesting myth by Plato and I believe that we should spend some time to think about this… According to Plato man was once complete. Man was originally an hermaphrodite, a being composed of one body both of man and woman. The original man had 4 legs, 4 arms, an oblong body, and of course two heads.

It is said that man was so unruly and threatened the gods that Zeus punished man by splitting man into two, man and woman thus bringing us to our present state, wounded and incomplete… This is why we are constantly in pain and desire to find our other half, the person that would complete us. Love is said to be a god that encompasses both the world of man and the world of gods, it is this love that heals our wounds and bring us together with the one we love, our soulmate.

It is said that to be able to be called completely human, we must find our other halves to be complete.

But I say that this is stupid. Ok, fine I do feel lonely at times and yes I want to be loved and want someone to love but for me, we already are complete. I do not want to base my happiness on anyone else because it is because of me and my own doing that I am able to do great things and I don’t need anyone else to live and survive (except my parents though, hehehe).

But love is such a troublesome topic…. let me end it here…

Paralyzed

I woke up today thinking that this was a good day to die. I'm in so much pain right now, and I'm not just talking about emotional pain but physical pain too. Damn, my shoulders are killing me (really it is).

I'm tired of living, I feel that I have already lived my life to the fullest and there is nothing else that excites me....

I don't want to move on... I'm paralyzed, I feel that I have nowhere else to go but here and now... I have no future...

What is to look forward in the future anyway? I have so much love to give but no one loves me back...

Oh no, I'm in my depressed mode again... but I'll be out of this sooner or later...

Anyway, I was really shocked last Wednesday because I was Spiritually empty and I really searched for God. Hmm... It only proves that we do indeed need to have faith so that we would be in a state of being ultimately concerned and all our other concerns would just follow... Hmm... I'm quoting the Philosophy of Paul Tillich where faith provides us a center so that we would be integrated or in other words so that we don't fall apart...


I'm really bored...

Carmen Electra

What poise! Even when she fell down her confidence completely overshadowed her fall.

Tired

Damn... as expected the finals is very bloody... project here, famoly care plan there, movie shoot here, everywhere I look I still have unfinished business.

Actually I just feel tired but my friends are commenting that I'm not my self, I'm easily irritated, or in short bunt-out... I don't know why I'm like this...

I just hope that my body and mind doesn't fail me. I hope that I can get through finals with ease... hopefully... I'm just tired... who am I kidding... I'm in a deep state of depression and I want to give up.

It's a good thing that I have this special someone who makes me want to go on. Love can really rejuvinate you hehehe...